Influencing External Vs Internal Change Options

Over the years I seem to have gotten fairly good at using magick to bring about favourable circumstances in my life. Jobs, money, partners, etc. Nothing spectacular, my results could be written off as coincidences but once you get a certain amount of "coincidences" you start to realise that perhaps they aren't really coincidences... But, as a sufferer of mild anxiety and depression, I have often tried to use magick to influence my internal climate, with very little success.

Lately I have been using my daily practice of the LBRP to influence my life. When invoking the archangels, I will talk to them and ask them to grant me small favours... The results have been quite impressive when it comes to external events (one example of many is that I had problems with my feelings for a workmate. It was problematic because I had a boyfriend, and the situation had been bad for quite some time. I asked the archangels for help, and the very same day, he got fired! Which isn't as bad as it sounds for him as he was getting quite tired of wokring there anyway, and from conversations I had with him afterwards it seemed that him getting fired - or rather, being asked to resign, but with good references - had worked out in his favour. This is just one example fo the "coincidences" I've had). Yet I have hardly had any success at all in alleviating my anxiety, depression, or my moderate substance abuse through the use of the LBRP or any magick at all!

Any similar experiences? Advice, theories, etc?

I didn't read through all the posts, but if nobody has suggested it, a quick-fix for depression is a candle. Light the candle and say to it (or outloud, I prefer to talk to the candle) "I light you to take away my depression. Every moment this candle burns I will feel less depressed" or something along those lines.

Most magicians seem to have depression, at least some of the best ones do. I know because the few I know have loads of depression and they're so kickass it's not even funny. I do get depression of course, but I'm more optimistic than most, and whenever I light a candle for a friend, relative, or myself to relieve depression, the effect is always happier or at least more content within a couple hours or at most a day later.

Now I know most would say "those are just minor cases of depression that would just go away within a couples hours anyway", but I'm talking about suicidal people here that I've done this for. I'm not trying to get attention having people think I'm a great and powerful magician, just trying to give people simple options that could possibly save a life.

As a side note a good quality magic oil like peace oil (not the cheap crap found in most occult shops, I mean the real kind made by a practitioner) is a huge help with the candle spells to relieve depression.

If anybody needs some free candle spells for healing or to relieve depression, PM me (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)