Ki Exersizes Options

I always thought i was good at sensing ki, (I dont see it, i dont hear it, i just have a sense that it is there) I guess im not

And i was trying to move a pencil as a mental exersize.

at first i tried a zero point technique, got nowhere.
I heard you can switch on your astral senses by flipping a switch in your mind. i dont think it worked.
then i tried a bit of empathy with the pencil, felt it with my mind, then i started to notice visual distortions, dont think its magical energy (You know when its dark and you space out for a while and then you see a bunch of flashing specks in the air and everything has a thin outline?)
Then i tried telling it to move with my mind
then yelling at it to move with my mind
pushing it with my mind.

I dont know how this is relevant to my question other than as an example of where im at.

but what are the best ki/energy control meditations/ exercises?

Ive been doing the middle pillar and circulation of light almost daily (The light goes in your crown energy center.)
and i used to do chakra meditations (The energy goes up your base center, different no?)

but i dont know if ive gotten anywhere?

ive discovered that i get much more proficient results (still far from perfect) When i dont try.

kind of like how when you go to sleep you just relax, well its kind of like that.

instead of staring at a point and thinking *point point point point*

I stare and dont think, though its flawed since my muscles still twitch and stuff, it seems alot easier, however, would this even help improve my concentration. its easy and the only real concentration is not getting restless and doing something else due to boerdom.

The point is not to keep your eyes on the dot. The point is to do no-thing, to think no-thing. Just be aware. If you are getting bored, it is because you are thinking. When thinking stops, time stops; no time, no boredom.

If you stare for too long your eyes will water. If your mind is quiet for too long, you may become enlightened. Until staring at a dot serves a purpose, I would abandon the practice. But, it's up to you.

If you have other complaints/questions, I suggest reading the rest of this thread again.

On the point of not trying, you are close.

peace