Lustfull Bonds, lust... Options

well its not sex im addicted to, nor should i use the words addiction, or the act of vile and disgusting acts humans can perform...but rather the energy i woman exhibits being completely unclothed. phiscally spiritually,m,,,,why jsut the other night his girl was all up in my grill and yes my friends it was a turn off...she merely wanted my phiscal body...its as if every girl i meet who is naked inside i fall madly in love with, not the love where you stalk them, not the love where you can't get them out of your minds, but the love that burns inside your stomach, eating you untill their skin touches yours, its almost a curse i've been born and breed with with, and only now i am figuring out how to make it a gift....the point of this topic is, does this happen to anyone else.? this is by no means a egoteric issue, i have no pride in this weird phenomonin, i only acknowlege its existance withing me, and within others,,,i think...so spill me your thoughts


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interestingly enough im a virgin, by choice
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thats ok casa. so am i (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) that doesn't mean i don't LOVE the feeling of sexual pleasure...or sheer naked freedom. i do not feel an ounce of guilt enjoying my body the way i do. I know i am beautiful, and many men have told me this...its a choice in celebration of my sexuality...as i am sure it is for you too. i decided that i wanted to love someone before i shared such a sacred thing as sex. when the time comes it will come...i have made peace with that. i, too, love woman's body. who wouldn't? that is the very goddess's essence. so conscious of its beauty and erotic power, its not even fair. But men have a beauty all of their own as well.

Still, all my friends joke that i put sex and love on a pedestal. yes, all these things are physical and can be messy and uncomfortable as well as pleasurable and surreal...but this is the very reason i consider it divine and precious. i think its perfectly sane to wait for the right person. after all, I consider it to be one of the Great Initiations into human interconnectedness.

for two twisting bodies, to join...
to mold and melt into one whole,
and then to melt back into individual
echos of this Single Union
out of a million
flesh to flesh
embraces


.....only to never see each other again? thanks it was fun goodbye? i don't think so.

but of course when i'm finally committed, i'll run my partner to the ground to make up for all the years i waited for him or her (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wink.gif)
you should know....virgins are dirty dirty DIRTY perverts.

"the vile and disgusting acts humans can perform"

however, i am not sure repugnance is an appropriate feeling at all...this suggests deeper conflicts and repression. this line worries me, friend (IMG:style_emoticons/default/help.gif) perhaps exploring the reason behind this disgust will shed new light into what is really bothering you?