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finding a magic teacher is not simple at all.
I wonder about your impression of what a teacher should be?
Here you are on the forum after all... that was fairly simple, wasn't it?
Start looking at the universe itself, and all people, places, and energies that are within it, as a teacher. You'll learn a lot 'on your own' this way, and eventually when you make the perspective shift, you'll understand what a teacher is in the first place, and will likely meet someone who can teach you what you need to learn.
Note: What you need to learn is not the same as what you want to learn. Everyone is meeting teachers every day, you have met hundreds of teachers, or at least dozens (maybe you're antisocial and don't meet a lot of people or go a lot of places).
Of course, if you're ignorant of the fact that the universe is the only teacher, then you won't recognize teachers when you meet them. Someone probably will not introduce themselves as a magician looking for a student (if they did I'd suggest you not trust them).
If i've read you right since you arrived here, then this probably won't seem very helpful to you either. You say you never get what you want, but you act like you've never -not- gotten what you wanted. You don't know the difference yet between what you want and what you need, and you don't have the perspective of a true student yet. That's not a personal attack - this is true of most people.
Imperial Arts has a great website with a great introduction to basic magic, mostly sympathetic in nature. Look up one of his posts in the class forums for the Goetia, and check his signature for a link. Nothing's stopping you from experimenting, and if you're going to let a few failures keep you from developing, then you should rethink this.
peace