First Bym, I will apologize for the abruptness of my post. I joined this forum a couple of years ago, and although I have only posted once before, I lurk quite a bit. So, no, you don't know me even though I feel familiar with some of you. I don't really practice magick, but I meditate quite a lot. It was a series of pretty extraordinary events related to my meditation practice that originally brought me to this forum.
Having said that, let me say that my meditation practice is definitely suffering. My focus is shot at this point and I'm having these strange little interruptions in my thought process. I have these episodes where my thoughts just don't hold together like they should. I don't know how to explain exactly. It's not like forgetting something. It's more like things just don't link up like they should.
Yes, I was ambivalent to this person prior to the last few weeks. We had a pleasant "hey howya doin'" kind of thing going on when we passed each other. Now, even though I'm thinking about him almost constantly I don't even want to be in the same room with him. It's too intense, but even as I try to avoid him I have this urge to spy on him. to follow him around. It's just weird, and yes it was very sudden. There really isn't any reason for him to be around so much either. He seems to be showing up just to get coffee every day.
There's no reason that I wouldn't date him. He's a little younger than men I usually go out with, but it's not a huge difference. He doesn't actually work for the same company, so that's not a problem, and no there are no other strange urges or conflicts.
I live in a major tourist destination, and I work in the hospitality industry. I meet lots of people, no problem. I'm comfortable around just about anyone. I'm not at all shy or coy.
It's late, and I have this feeling that I sound like a lunatic. Thanks for being tolerant. Rest well Bym.
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