Praying To God Options

yeah so i was thinking in the shower
not about magic
yet for some reason i had some sort of idea.

Is praying to god magic?
is it magic under the paradigm that if you ask this enigmatic being for a favor that he will reply and help with good faith?

and then i thought more?

isnt ordinary magic the exact same thing, except instead of asking a being
we tell the universe...
and in some cases we do ask a being
like in a summoning of a demon?

And if that's true, then if you replace God with universe in the bible, it is more like things were guided into place by fate, and not by a bearded sociopath?
and it becomes something entirely different?

idk really
i just dont think much about Christianity because i am not a christian at all so

whatever.

hay kath I dont know if you will read this.
Tonight I Sat in front of a candle and prayed the rosary one time and read some psalms.
THan I asked to talk to my guardian angel. because yesterday I did some banishing rituals and I read the 1st and 2nd enochian calls.
then I went to bed and I was pretty depressed and all of a sudden a warm feeling came over me and I saw an angelic face looking at me. I wanted to do it again.

So I sat in silence and sent the message out for and angel to come. but than I got all these frightful images in my head. and I got feelings of a dark angel wanting to hurt me and strangle me and all around me was evil. It was very scary i would of jumped at a pin drop so I had to come on here and try and zone out of it.

Is there any good way to avoid this. I mean yesterday I did LBRP and I didn't have any negative effect. but tonight all i did was pray the rosary and some psalms and no rituals just asking for guidance and I get an evil angel instead. any advice

Maybe its better to see nothing at all than open your eyes and be surrounded by evil. I still have yet to overcome the dweller on the threshold. but the fear is a little to real ya know what I mean. sometimes I wonder if its better to be ignorant to anything spiritual than open yourself up to things like this.

I don't like the demons In my head. they follow me. and I have a bad feeling behind my back. am I too sensitive and not sane enough to practice magic? what do you think?

This post has been edited by xXDaemonReignXx: Nov 2 2009, 10:08 AM