Help, i would like a little help from you all... Options

i dont know if this is posted in the right place, but i would really appreciate it if my more powerful acquaintances on this site would please find the time to do a little spell for me. i plan on going into the marines soon, but my life isn't taking the right direction. i need motivation. i need discipline. i need the motivation and direction to get through the rest of school, to become physically fit, to deny the things that are bad for me, and to either find my soulmate or come to terms with the fact that i might have to wait for her to come into my life. i'm poor, my trucks an absolute piece of shit( about to die on me actually), i'm depressed, and i realize that i don't have the power to fix everything at once. maybe that's a bit much to put into one spell, but if any of you could help me i would not only greatly appreciate it, i would be indebted to you. i could do some minor spells for whoever decides to help me. those of you who know you could help, please consider it. (vagrant dreamer, if knowledge is power, your help would be AWESOME.) and again, please. obviously i don't expect everything to be done for me. if you have any spells or tips for spells or just life in general i would appreciate that as well. herbs, stones, talismans, mantras, anything you can think of for me. even if you don't do anything for me, thanks for at least reading this.

ah, suffering! - the curse of duality, and the illusion of mundane comfort and wealth

no spells, since only you can fix you - even suicide is useless because you will reincarnate into the same impossible circumstances

realize that what you think you desire (money, love, etc) is dictated by the illusions spun by those who want you to buy what they are selling you - the right girl, the right beer, the right car, debt and leveraging you debt, a house and a mortgage, wedded bliss, fighting, war, conflict, resolution, closure, insurance, burial, heaven, a final death of the soul - all are illusions of mundane comfort - they don't exist but they exert tremendous pressure on your mind to conform and submit and go along with the illusion - it makes me sad sometimes seeing people buying into the illusion so wholeheartedly, thinking that is what life is about

determine what it is your true self, the eternal soul awareness that is the real you, wants you to be doing - i would suggest the simplest form of all self-hypgnosis, delving deep into your subconscious looking for the meaning of this new incarnation of yours - you have a task to perform, simply determine what it is by asking yourself while in hypgnosis - it may not be very well formed yet as some of the players might not even be incarnated yet, but you can get the general idea

develop a second self that does what the subliminal instruction means for you to do (which is what most magicians do, that way they can still function within the illusion)

or go for it and rebuild yourself utterly to be what your subconscious is telling you to be, but the illusion will resent that and try to stop you at every turn

This post has been edited by esoterica: Nov 23 2009, 09:17 AM

I kind of ran out of time before, so let me amend/continue here...

realize that what you think you desire (money, love, etc) is dictated by the illusions spun by those who want you to buy what they are selling you - the right girl, the right beer, the right car, debt and leveraging you debt, a house and a mortgage, wedded bliss, fighting, war, conflict, resolution, closure, insurance, burial, heaven, a final death of the soul - all are illusions of mundane comfort - they don't exist but they exert tremendous pressure on your mind to conform and submit and go along with the illusion - it makes me sad sometimes seeing people buying into the illusion so wholeheartedly, thinking that is what life is about

determine what it is your true self, the eternal soul awareness that is the real you, wants you to be doing - i would suggest the simplest form of all self-hypgnosis, delving deep into your subconscious looking for the meaning of this new incarnation of yours - you have a task to perform, simply determine what it is by asking yourself while in hypgnosis - it may not be very well formed yet as some of the players might not even be incarnated yet, but you can get the general idea

Esoterica makes a good point at the heart of the matter on a cosmic scale - my advice, however, would be that through mastery over mundane things in life, we learn how unimportant they are, and the realization, if we want it, arises naturally at this point. In other words my suggestion is to keep this in mind, but focus on learning to plan, persist, and execute. Even to sit and meditate until gnosis occurs requires this basic ability to sit down and stick with it until it happens. The hard way is to sit down right now and do this. It will take a long time that way, unless you really don't care how long you will have to sit (you more than likely do, for instance, what do you have to do tomorrow? Next week? When will you need to eat/drink next? See?) The easy way is the long way, oddly enough.

develop a second self that does what the subliminal instruction means for you to do (which is what most magicians do, that way they can still function within the illusion)

or go for it and rebuild yourself utterly to be what your subconscious is telling you to be, but the illusion will resent that and try to stop you at every turn

These are also good suggestions. Here is the fine print, however. In the first case you eventually have to resolve the two selves. The more different they are the more trauma is involved with that, and in most cases one or the other wins out - usually not the 'second' self and then what have you got? We're attached to who we are, you see, and developing attachment like that to a second version of Self is very difficult, most people simply aren't capable of it I think. Those that are were probably mentally loose (we'll say, flexible?) to begin with.

In the second case, she's absolutely right, but it's the only absolutely sure-fire way. You have to view that other self, the one with all the bad habits, as an enemy that you must enter into combat with and defeat.

There's a line between these two, though, and I often use this particular method. I'm not suggesting it's perfect for everyone but...

You might consider allowing the parts of yourself you do not like to begin manifesting as a separate personality, at first 'imaginary' which on the particulars of each habit voices it's opinion at each opportunity to indulge that habit.

So, for instance, lets say you want to start a fitness routine. So, tomorrow morning you've decided "I'm going to get up at 6am, stretch, drink a big glass of water and then go run for 30 minutes before I take a shower." Immediately part of you is already thinking "Oh no I'm not, I'm going to be tired at 6am, I'm going to stay up until 1am." Instead of just thinking that in the back of your head, and identifying with it, drag it out of the subconscious all together, and confront it as a separate individual. At first this just takes dialogue - Instead of allowing yourself to think in the first person like before, and then feeling ashamed and pushing it into your subconscious where you can forget about it and give it control (just like a sigil, actually... funny that...) think it 'out loud' in the second person. "You are not, you're going to be tired at 6am because you're going to stay up until 1am." Then it's a dialogue, and you can respond - "It's my body, it's my decision. It's ten pm now and I'm going to bed." Then follow through, go to bed. If you don't, give that personification voice to call you on it.

This is tricky. And I'm not going to suggest it's 100% safe, there could be dangers involved. The point, though, is to keep these self defeating thoughts from sinking into the subconscious where they can do a lot more harm. If you're arguing with another 'voice' internally then you are engaging something consciously and you still have some degree of conscious control. That voice can even give up, if you want it to, or assent, and give you a sense of accomplishment or pride for having proven it wrong. It can chide you when you fail and encourage 'revenge' of a sort. Then, when you have finally defeated one particular habit, you can 'banish' that thoughtform entirely by willfully negating the habit with feeling. (normal people do this and they're crazy, magicians do it and they're just utilizing dynamic multi-perspective self-association).

And now, a warning.

Of course the obvious could happen - you could lose, and this thoughtform could become the incarnation of all of your bad habits and then become an oppressive force which drives your worst qualities into the extreme and ruins you as a person. What's life without risk, hm? However, it works by your rules, and you can assign a specific sigil of sorts, I suggest something you can wear or handle in some way, an artifact if you will, that you can turn to if/when this 'thoughtform' begins to gain some independence, something to which it will be programmed to react adversely to. This way, when this thoughtform begins to gain independence, you'll have some defense/control over it through this protective artifact.

So, to explain this is rather step by step terms (you did want a spell so I thought a more proactive 'magical' option my give you some room to wiggle a bit).

First, pick one habit. Assert for yourself that you are going to defeat this negative habit, you must supplant it with an opposite positive habit (this is the only way, its a brain thing). If you are lazy, do hard work; if you eat indiscriminately then plan your meals strictly; if you shirk school work, assign a time that you will sit down and finish it before you get up. Only one habit for now.

Immediately assign a voice, not a name, to that 'bad habit'. Let it speak for itself. You'll have to talk for it at first, just switch the negative first person voice to a negative second person "you this, you that". Never let negative thinking be in the first person, always let positive thinking be first person, "I do this, I do that". Confront that second person negative thinking but don't be ashamed - it's not 'me' thinking it, it's 'him'.

Engage your habit. Let's say school work. You know you need to sit down at 4pm when you get home, to execute your assignments. You think positive, "When I get home I will sit down and do these assignments." (sorry, i dont' know what kind of school you are engaged in, you get it though). That negative second person voice chimes in, "But there's a show coming on TV, you don't want to miss it! You can do your work at 5:30 instead." You are in charge here. "No, If I get involved with TV I'll end up putting it off, I need to do it when I get home." The voice insists: "Tomorrow you can do it as soon as you get home, today just put it off an hour and a half, you can still get it done." You say, "No. That's a bad habit that I need to fix. It's not going to kill me to miss that show. I'm doing my work when I get home." The voice says, "Okay..."

Then you get home and you lay your books out. THe TV is in the corner: "CSI is on right now, you can still see how it starts. maybe you've seen it before, you can check." You say, "No, I can watch it later, I'm going to work now." It says, "You can work and watch TV at the same time, it'll be fine." You: "I need to focus, this is the end of this discussion." Voice: "You know you want to turn the TV on."

At this point you introduce the symbol of power over this habit. The voice changes tones now, and promises to keep quiet, to leave you alone if you'll just put the symbol away. In the first stage, you're the one making all the talk on both sides. The divide hasn't formed yet. So this voice will be subjugated by that symbol if you make it so. Every time you need to put an end to it's seduction, pull out that symbol, or draw it, etc. I suggest something static, because later on if you don't draw it just right it might not work. Serious business.

I suggest slowly assigning each bad habit to the SAME voice. One day, it'll gain independence. How long depends on how flexible your mind is. 21 days, probably, or thereabouts, if you engage it every day. Let it hang around for another 40 days then, maybe more but probably not less. There's a kind of 'weaning' period where you could still just 'make it gone' if you wanted to. You really want to let it get to the point where a simple act of will won't get rid of it.

Then you want to do battle with it one last time. Meditation, full ritual evocation, dream work, sigilization and burning. But to do that, you need to know from the beginning that this entity has a name - you just don't know what it is. Don't give it one, resist the urge entirely to name this being. Instead, when it has reached independence from your mind, but is still confined there, threaten it with it's control symbol until it says its own name. You can then use that name to gain power over it and destroy it. Or, for that matter, evoke it and bind it in a phylactery I suppose. Congratulations, you've just birthed a classical demon. Or possibly incubated an existing demon, at some point the line just kinda fades away.

It's slow, but faster than systematic self-mastery, and dangerous, but safer than doing nothing and wasting all of your time. You can do it in 90 days if you have a really flexible mind, it might help to start on a new moon and recognize it's independence on the full moon. It'll be strong, but if you fail miserably before the full moon you can just start over no harm done. you only get so many tries though before it won't just go away, so I suggest winning the first time around.

So, there's a bit of magic for you if you wan the fun, engaging, non-muggle way to try and accomplish these things. Remember, our lifestyle is composed of habits - good habits and bad habits. There are no in betweens where we don't have any habits. Those places are areas already covered by other more general habits (Generally one is lazy - it's not a habit to always avoid helping mom do the lawn, but it is a habit to avoid hard work out of laziness.) So in anything you feel is wrong, it is because there are bad habits at work there, you have to target the habit. One day you can worry about transcending habits and all that, but you aren't there yet so for now focus on making good habits. Engaging habits makes us feel good - whether they are good habits or bad ones doesn't matter. Break bad habits and make good ones to replace them, and the good habits will make you feel just as good as the bad ones. Better even because you won't have the backlash response of shame because you 'wish' you could change them.

peace