Need A Little Insight To Hate. Options

First off im not sure were this would go in the forums if here at all. But i would like to ask i can sort of read energys (auras) of people and i have a green aura which is usally indicated as healing. What does this matter you ask well my personality is i wont fight i never become angry with anyone i do get angry but never with someone. But whenever someone hints at fighting i start to shake like a leaf on a tree. I cant even watch tv that has violence in it. I try to always maintain a loving vibration but that is hard in this world consumed in hate. So why is it that violence is so nerve racking to me? I was just wondering if anyone could help me with this is this a good thing or bad?

Thanks for any responses in advance...

sounds good to me - i don't like fisticuffs either and i just don't watch tv period anymore as it is now mostly subliminal mind-control designed to fill you with fear so you will be more easily governed and manipulated into buying the advertisers products - physical violence is stupid, but how do you feel about doing something like hurting someone magically? - for me that isn't the same thing at all as i am far more powerful magically, and even spiritually, than physically - would king arthur's merlin duke it out with a bully or just cast a spell to render the bully harmless for a while? - would merlin tell the bully he was working spells against him or work silently?

advanced info: the ego is a survival mechanism that is present in these bodies we inhabit - jesus said to crucify the ego to attain eternal life, nitsche describes it as the will to power, and the media uses it to manipulate the gullible - buy the right gadgets and be impressive, drive the fastest car and be superior - beat up a skinny kid or a foreign country and walk with a swagger in your step - the ego is everything to most people, mainly because it is reinforced by the media and school and peer pressure - to realize the flimsiness of one's ego is to cause the body to shake and shiver - to recognise the ego (and how it is manipulated) is the first step - some paths work with the ego and some crucify it - the way you handle the shivers and shakes of the realized flimsiness of the ego really depends on your path and how you want to handle it


note: i'm doing new years eve at the double-black-diamond ski lodge - talk to you in 2010 if i survive

This post has been edited by esoterica: Dec 30 2009, 12:39 PM