Again, With These Hordes!, Why is it always hordes!?? Options

A long while ago, I did a post on dreams where I was facing off against hordes of some sort of foe or another.

Ever since, at least once a month, I have had a dream of the same theme. The enemies were different, but the feeling was the same.

First, it was Cops/Guards. Then, it was Nazis. Then, it was Zombies. Then, it was Demons. Just last night, it was a battalion of Starcraft Firebats all trudging to me, announcing that they mean to capture me.

A typical psychiatrist would ask, "Well? Why don't you surrender?" Because the compulsion to fight, and the feeling of danger was too great.

What do these dreams mean? Sometimes, I am sought to be killed. Others, captured. Always, I am the hunted, being pursued by a group force of some sort.

Insight, please. Serious insight. I've gotten lots of heckles of, "Lay off the video games!" but after a while, the joke gets old, and the question remains unanswered.

Please, help me with some input.

ADDED NOTE: I am always fighting back. Always swinging, or shooting back at my pursuers. I am always backing up, evading, countering.... but they keep coming!!

This post has been edited by Xenomancer: Mar 8 2010, 10:36 AM

Yeah 23,000 simoleans is definately binding. I could see how that kind of commitment would seem like a never ending trap with no end. It also makes sense that you'd be chased by zombies since they are usually seen as mindless minions of evil who just do whatever they're told by their masters... or just randomly attack people to eat their brains... such wasted talent aye?

Well how about financial aid? Since I've been going to school I've gotten most of it paid for through grants. Fortunately I haven't to take out any loans yet but as I continue towards a masters degree, loans are going to be the only way I can ever afford to get a masters degree. And what sucks about psychology is that apart from working around lunatics or addicts (or both) there really isn't much of a job market for psych majors (I guess I could become a teacher... but that's not what I really want either). Not only that but if I want to become a "psychologist", in the legal sense, I have to earn a doctorite. Point is that in my situation if I want any kind of career in psychology that pays well and that I would really enjoy I pretty much have to move to a major city out of state away from my friends and family... who are basically all that I have in this life. And if it is my future to help lunatics and addicts why the hell do I need to know that a sinozoidal function is a product of an inverse tangent? So I can certainly relate to feeling trapped in a dead end degree with bull shit classes that really do not apply to anything.

The one thing I cannot relate to is transfering your credits from one school to another. That's just killer. I mean you either garduate with their degree or lose out on the credits you've completed (not to mention the money it cost) Here at least almost all of your credits transfer to other schools that are in state as long as you earned them within the last 5 years. That much you're going through must be really stressing you out. And three strikes? I think that is just an unfair policy on the part of your school so they can manage their own statistics to make themselves look better. See those that get dropped from their school (rather than flunk out) don't get counted on their roster that claims 97% successful graduation with 95% job placement within the first year of graduation.

So what do you do? You can sit here and keep telling yourself how you're going to fail or you can start comming up with ways on how you're going to succeed. Maybe try to find an online tutor, even outside of your school who can help you with your lit class... and don't try me, by the way, I'm terrible with literature myself!.. But you can still do what you can to make sure you at least pass the class. Now I assume you have a spring break, even if its just half a week - so use that time to really pick up the pace on this class and maybe even get ahead. If nothing else I would ask a student accademic advisor on what you should do. If you have to even write a letter to the deen of the school explaining your situation. If they really like your money that you've been giving them, they should give you some measure of amnesty (like summer school or something).

If they can't even do that then you really have my sympathies because that school sucks!

I think the worse thing you could do, in my opinion, is to believe that you truly are imprisoned with no way out. Stay active, stay proactive, seek solutions to your problems and if you cannot find those yourself, ask someone for help - financial/accedemic advisors, the head chair of the literature department, the school deen or president. Even other students in your class that may be doing better. Keep your options open and actively seek to exploit those options as much as you can. I'm making it sound easy, but its not. It'll still be hard work. However, if you pass this class even with a 60% that should be good enough to continue on your degree program and you'll never have to take that stupid class again! (untill you decide to double major 5 years from now (IMG:style_emoticons/default/biggrin.gif) )