God, Need help finding Options

So I was raised christian but I never followed the bible or believed it to be real from god. I did pray to god but have since stopped. I feel that I have lost connection with god that has always been with me for as long as I can remember since I stopped praying. But I fear that if this god is the christian god I am on a 1 way ticket to hell for magick. The trouble is I feel strongly about god and about magick both seem and feel right to me. But I don't feel anything for the bible it is more I feel it is wrong and is not the work of the god I believe in. But I do not know who or whatever you like the god I believe is? Please forgive my lose term of god and who, is, etc.

If anyone can give thoughts on this or has gone through something like this I would love to hear from you. I don't know if it is just a lack of myself wanting or not ready for change since I have related to god being able to give me peace after I die instead of torture or if its something else. Should I keep praying to the god I relate to and keep doing magick since I have the same strong feeling towards them both? I truly wish I was better at magick so I could use it to help me get answers. Does anyone else have answers for god christian or any other major religion. From what I've read you can summon spirits to get knowledge from and divination. Has anyone ever asked if one of the religions is correct?


Thanks to all and again take my use of who, is, god with a grain of salt for I lack the words to explain it.

Does it have a view on magick?

@Your bible point, Makes since to me for I have felt that way about it for a long time that is was nothing more than a creation of man.

Does it have a view on magick?

One could say that The Divine has no opinion on anything - opinions are a dualistic concept, and have to exist amidst at least two poles.

However, in the ultimate unification of the Divine, there is nothing that exists that isn't supposed to, no action taken that isn't supposed to be taken. We ourselves, our higher selves, are all expressions of this unity, temporarily encapsulated in varying degrees of Ego, separation. Your higher self will judge you, and you may either recognize it as a deity or for what it really is - but it has a higher self to answer to as well which will judge it at the end of it's allotted tenure, and so on.

But the way in which that higher self judges you is more deeply personal than the judgement warned of in the bible - and most other holy books as well. Somewhere inside we all know there will be a kind of judgement to come one day, and some have taken that inner instinct and wielded it as a weapon of fear upon the masses. Your higher self, however, your own personal Deity in a way, will not judge you as good or evil, but on your faith in yourself and in it's guidance, and on your progress learning lessons in life, coping with the obstacles it put before you physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Magick is completely natural - it is the application of principles inherent to creation, on every level. When we engage in magical practice, we aren't defying any kind of divine law, we are participating in the ongoing act of creation. Now, we can use magic for subjectively good or evil intentions, but our higher selves view us with compassion, as children which are yet unrealized expressions of themselves.

It is your own intentions, your feelings, and your path through life which determines the weight of your heart when you die.

peace