God, Need help finding Options

So I was raised christian but I never followed the bible or believed it to be real from god. I did pray to god but have since stopped. I feel that I have lost connection with god that has always been with me for as long as I can remember since I stopped praying. But I fear that if this god is the christian god I am on a 1 way ticket to hell for magick. The trouble is I feel strongly about god and about magick both seem and feel right to me. But I don't feel anything for the bible it is more I feel it is wrong and is not the work of the god I believe in. But I do not know who or whatever you like the god I believe is? Please forgive my lose term of god and who, is, etc.

If anyone can give thoughts on this or has gone through something like this I would love to hear from you. I don't know if it is just a lack of myself wanting or not ready for change since I have related to god being able to give me peace after I die instead of torture or if its something else. Should I keep praying to the god I relate to and keep doing magick since I have the same strong feeling towards them both? I truly wish I was better at magick so I could use it to help me get answers. Does anyone else have answers for god christian or any other major religion. From what I've read you can summon spirits to get knowledge from and divination. Has anyone ever asked if one of the religions is correct?


Thanks to all and again take my use of who, is, god with a grain of salt for I lack the words to explain it.

So I was raised christian but I never followed the bible or believed it to be real from god. I did pray to god but have since stopped. I feel that I have lost connection with god that has always been with me for as long as I can remember since I stopped praying. But I fear that if this god is the christian god I am on a 1 way ticket to hell for magick. The trouble is I feel strongly about god and about magick both seem and feel right to me. But I don't feel anything for the bible it is more I feel it is wrong and is not the work of the god I believe in. But I do not know who or whatever you like the god I believe is? Please forgive my lose term of god and who, is, etc.

If anyone can give thoughts on this or has gone through something like this I would love to hear from you. I don't know if it is just a lack of myself wanting or not ready for change since I have related to god being able to give me peace after I die instead of torture or if its something else. Should I keep praying to the god I relate to and keep doing magick since I have the same strong feeling towards them both? I truly wish I was better at magick so I could use it to help me get answers. Does anyone else have answers for god christian or any other major religion. From what I've read you can summon spirits to get knowledge from and divination. Has anyone ever asked if one of the religions is correct?
Thanks to all and again take my use of who, is, god with a grain of salt for I lack the words to explain it.

I myself have grown up christian and been groomed to pray to the christian god. Recently, I have also stopped praying and started exploring. I found that ancient Christians (jesus included) actually practiced magic (they used talismans, and even the pentagram was a holy symbol at one point) but it wasnt until the rise of the catholic church and extermination of all things "heathen" (basically things that could threaten the church, like magic). So dont feel guilty about your tie to magic and God. God's first messengers practiced magic, as did every civilization before the fall of the roman empire.

You also stated that "has anyone ever asked if one of the religions is correct"; I would like to say that I believe ALL religions are correct. ALl religions find their own salvation and believe in higher forces. Since the dawn of man there hasnt been a SINGLE tribe of people who have not had a diety, god and/or goddess, to pray to and an afterlife to expect based on human actions. In the end, it boils down to being a decent person, and your guardian will take you to your salvation.

Also, if you REALLY think about the Christian system: all sinners go to hell, we are all sinners, even the nicest people are sinners. It's possible that if you are "sent to eternal damnation" you will meet some pretty nice people there just like you who were graded on a too harsh system that was designed to instil fear into undereducated minds.

Write me if you have ANY questions about this. I'm on my own way of finding religions, and also I'm a history enthusiast and can talk to you about the anthropology and history of religion if you want. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)