God, Need help finding Options

So I was raised christian but I never followed the bible or believed it to be real from god. I did pray to god but have since stopped. I feel that I have lost connection with god that has always been with me for as long as I can remember since I stopped praying. But I fear that if this god is the christian god I am on a 1 way ticket to hell for magick. The trouble is I feel strongly about god and about magick both seem and feel right to me. But I don't feel anything for the bible it is more I feel it is wrong and is not the work of the god I believe in. But I do not know who or whatever you like the god I believe is? Please forgive my lose term of god and who, is, etc.

If anyone can give thoughts on this or has gone through something like this I would love to hear from you. I don't know if it is just a lack of myself wanting or not ready for change since I have related to god being able to give me peace after I die instead of torture or if its something else. Should I keep praying to the god I relate to and keep doing magick since I have the same strong feeling towards them both? I truly wish I was better at magick so I could use it to help me get answers. Does anyone else have answers for god christian or any other major religion. From what I've read you can summon spirits to get knowledge from and divination. Has anyone ever asked if one of the religions is correct?


Thanks to all and again take my use of who, is, god with a grain of salt for I lack the words to explain it.

I was born a Roman Catholic, and raised on a firm belief in god. I went to church and said my prayers, and believed in God, and Jesus, still do. However, deep down I felt it wasn't right for me.

I can feel the energy and love in church and I ken praying my energy was going to to him but I always felt out of tuned with it. It wasn't until I discovered my path in Shamanism that I felt I was where I belonged spiritually. Take it from experience, go with what you feel is right. I cut my self off from my spiritual side with Shamanism and I felt lost, and withdrawn. Cost me my happiness for years as well as my marriage, and friendships.