God, Need help finding Options

So I was raised christian but I never followed the bible or believed it to be real from god. I did pray to god but have since stopped. I feel that I have lost connection with god that has always been with me for as long as I can remember since I stopped praying. But I fear that if this god is the christian god I am on a 1 way ticket to hell for magick. The trouble is I feel strongly about god and about magick both seem and feel right to me. But I don't feel anything for the bible it is more I feel it is wrong and is not the work of the god I believe in. But I do not know who or whatever you like the god I believe is? Please forgive my lose term of god and who, is, etc.

If anyone can give thoughts on this or has gone through something like this I would love to hear from you. I don't know if it is just a lack of myself wanting or not ready for change since I have related to god being able to give me peace after I die instead of torture or if its something else. Should I keep praying to the god I relate to and keep doing magick since I have the same strong feeling towards them both? I truly wish I was better at magick so I could use it to help me get answers. Does anyone else have answers for god christian or any other major religion. From what I've read you can summon spirits to get knowledge from and divination. Has anyone ever asked if one of the religions is correct?


Thanks to all and again take my use of who, is, god with a grain of salt for I lack the words to explain it.

The way I see it a religion is meant to help you through times of trouble and make you feel complete, so if Christianity isn't doing this for you is it really the path for you? In my opinion magic is just as natural as the air we breathe, if "God" didn't want us to practise magic then we wouldn't have that ability at all. My advice to you and anyone else who has this problem (which seems to be a very common one!) is that you need to do what feels right and works for you - explore Christianity to its fullest, explore magic, explore mysticism and religion from around the world and see what you do and don't agree with. You'll soon see parallels between a lot of religions and belief systems and find what truly works for you. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/biggrin.gif)

Also, something I found helpful when making this transition myself - the ancient Egyptian belief system is VERY similar to Christianity; Ma'at (the ancient Egyptian law of universal balance), Osiris and the ankh are all found within Christianity. I'd suggest looking into this belief system as the parallels you will notice will make the whole process much smoother. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

Good luck! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/bigwink.gif)