I'm feeling like preaching today so just skip my rant if you're not in the mood (IMG:
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Most of us will experience that emptyness you talked about Mediocracy. IMHO, it is an emptiness of purpose, goals and lack of something exciting to look forward to. I remember both times when I feel fulfilled and when I feel empty and compares them. Have we try that?
I am/was fulfilled because I have something to look forward to, something I am excited about, something worth living for, something that get's my heart pumping with desires.
Contrarily, I feel emptiness when I have dissapoinments, when my expectations is not met and pessimistic in achieving them, when there seemed to be no hope, and whatever I do to get what I want does not turn out as I planned it to be. Basically, emptyness it is a state of hopelessness and it is a state when I'm too lazy to do something or lack of persistence and discipline to make neccesary changes and sacrifices.
Deep inside, we all want a certain portions of riches, fame, fulfilling relationships, love and happiness but often, we locked ourself out from it, more often from our own self limiting beliefs of what we're capable of doing, and achieving. We asked ourself different questions, depressing questions... like.. why me God? what did I do to deserve this? - where will these kind of questions leads us? of some benefits?
I found out that when I change the way I think - The way I question myself - my reality follows. It is a matter of focus. Just like a race driver will ALWAYS focus on where he want to go and never at the wall. I feel best and driven when I ask,"what am I grateful for in life?" "what would I have to believe in order to be successful?", "what can I do, right now - to be happy?"
Success to me, is to live my life in a way that causes me to feel tons of pleasure and very little pain. Does money makes me happy? Definately! I won't be happy without being financially secure - not "that" rich, but secure. Love? Absolutely! I can't live without love and I need heaps of it. etc etc... but how do I get there? what must I do right now in the present to purchase the future I want to have? What must I sacrifice to prepare myself to earnt it? We usually get what we deserve and to deserve it, I know I have to make...Decisions..
I must make decisions on what to focus on, decide what things means to me, what I must BELIEVE, decisions on what I no longer tolerate and/or make a new habit of doing, and what to do to create the life I desire. When I figured out and decided what I want, I'll start doing something about it. If things doesn't work out, then I must try something else, keep changing my approaches, notice what's working and what's not working. Failure is not an option. A failure is not always a mistake, but I just find a way of NOT making it to work, it may simply be the best thing I can do with my current situation, but sometimes situation changes - of our own creation or not - so, the real mistake is to stop, because that is the point where I accepted myself as a failure.
I was not delivered into this world into defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. I am not the sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepperd. I am a dragon and I refuse to talk, to walk, and to sleep with the sheep. The slaughter house od failure is not my destiny. I will persist until I succeed.
~ Ancient scroll mark III (Og Mandino's the Greatest Salesman in the World)
And whether I achieve what I originally aimed for, in the end, I still will be "wealthy" of the experiences and experiments I gained along process. What do I have to lose? Nothing but wealth!
End of my preach (IMG:
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