So Hungry Options

Yeah, well I was doing meditations (in a haunted very highly charged place) and reached a very energetically aware state of being. I was this energetic being and very hungry, it was like being awake for the first time in my life. Through this being's eyes I saw the power node, the source of the hauntings and suffering; it looked to me like food, (I was very hungry) and I ate the thing. Immediately afterwards I was ecstatic, rolling in visual hallucinations while I was metabolizing this energy. Afterwards I was aware, and very aware of being hungry. I feel if I continue eating I will change, something more, something I was meant to be. This life is mundane comparatively, I had an awareness I've never seen before: able to see with a sort of radar, energetic beings were surrounded by my outer 'aura' and I could see all sides of them, and I would 'smell' them, if they served no purpose they were consumed. I've been afraid of falling back into what I now refer to as 'slumber' that is the living without this, I have difficulty finding power nodes. I've tried concerts but have yet to find a rager to plug into, meanwhile I've been taking a little from this girl I've been seeing, I hate to do it but I'm so hungry. I have walked to a haunted row of buildings to feed from afar to no avail, I've tried astrial projection, still very little fruition. What kind of being is stuck in this situation? Food all around me, ethics dictates I shal not feed on these beings but ethics also dictates when being is hungry it should eat. This is an interesting situation, feedback?

This is supercool. I had the exact same reaction when I pretty much tried to use my left and right brain to basically tele/empathize with people. The whole room exploded, and it was a mix of this nearly orgasmic ecstasy and overwhelming terror.

I'd say that the irony of the hunger that eventually came about was that the hunger we experienced right after that was an intense desire for, in my case, nirvana, more of that absoluteness. I'd actually look inside to find the food you're looking for. You're awake now, and you're never going to fall back into that slumber unless if you make yourself do so. I've found that in the process of consuming myself, that I found a form of fulfillment that I couldn't from consuming other things. Dunno, the Ouroboros/Amon Ra model is actually legitimate.