Accidental Sorcery?, Casting spells without trying? Options

Hi,

I'm not sure if I posted this in the right section; the way I learned, sorcery was defined as magick done only in the mind. So if I did post this in the wrong section, would a mod please move it to the right section?


Tonight, as I was outside watering my plants, I was looking at the lights from the elementary school that's across from my back yard. As I stood there looking at the lights I thought to myself how I really disliked the lights (they are very bright street light type lights that are always on).

I started to think, wouldn't it be great if I could just get rid of the lights with no effort? So, just playing around, I picked out a light and imagined that I had a sharp metal spearhead in my hand. I imagined myself raising my hand to my mouth and blowing, as if I were blowing a kiss. In my mind the spearhead zoomed through the air and in 1 to 2 seconds traveled the 100 to 200 yards to the light and made contact, destroying it. Almost instantly that exact light went out. I don't know if it turned off or burned out, but it went out and didn't come back on.

It reminded me of something else that happened earlier this year where I was at a funeral and thought to myself, "wouldn't it be strange if the deceased's spirit started playing with that lamp; making it turn on and off?" And that's what happened; the lamp shut off immediately and flickered on and off throughout the whole service.

In both these incidents I didn't intend to cause any change, I was just playing in my mind. 'What if' scenarios, but they happened anyway, instantly.

I've been practicing magick for well over a decade, but I've never had this happen, that I know of. I may have but just wrote it off as coincidence. And instant results to boot.

My question is, is it possible I was preforming magick without any intention of doing so? And if so, why the instant results? I understand these could very well be coincidences, but that's really far out there if they are.

Do any of you have any experience with this happening to you or anyone else? Do any of you have any stories like this where you might have caused change but you weren't even trying?

I welcome your thoughts and stories.

Yes, I would love to know more about your past experiences if you'd be comfortable sharing. I won't ask you anything about your past right now, instead I'll just let you tell me whatever you're comfortable with.

I would love to know more about the egregore that worked with you. Anything and everything you can tell me about them would be wonderful. I've also had contact with beings when I was younger but nothing to the extent you have; they really didn't teach me anything directly.

You mentioned you have trouble establishing legitimate bonds with people. This interests me due to the fact that I'm in a similar situation. I don't form bonds with people either; when I look and see two people who are in love or best friends, I can't understand the relationship they share. It's so foreign to me. I honestly don't think I could ever have a bond like that with a human and honestly I don't want one. It's so strange to watch everyone around me chasing each other looking to establish that type of bond. As I watch them all I can think is, "Why do you want that?" I can't understand it. Not only that, but solitude is bliss as far as I'm concerned. Figuratively as well at literally.

I came to the conclusion a long time ago that my soul isn't human. I have a theory that souls can form in different places. For example, Earth. I believe that if a soul forms on earth or the 3rd dimension than it will be perfectly suited for existence here. These are the people who just 'work' here; they fit into this dimension and world perfectly. I believe that a majority of the souls on Earth formed here. I don't feel that my soul did.

Ever since I was a kid I felt different and had trouble understanding human behavior. The world just felt backwards in every way; it still does. I've NEVER felt connected with people, as a matter of fact, it's always been like I'm surrounded by another species. The best way I can describe it is like I'm in a foreign land surrounded by foreign people and their foreign culture. They can't understand me and I can't understand them. The ONLY time I've EVER felt like I belonged somewhere or with a certain group is when I started communicating with a group of spiritual beings in my sleep. The beings and I were/are all connected, knowing each other as well as being a collective; many beings as one. When I started meeting with them, I finally felt I had come home to where I belonged with the people I belonged with. I can't even begin to describe the relief I felt. The cruel part is I would always wake up here. It's these feelings combined with the always present feelings of difference that lead me to the belief of not having a human soul. I know the only connection I'll ever be able to have is with them but as far as I know I'm the only one here. I hope I'm not alone and I look for them but so far I'm still alone. Being with 'my people' as I call them is the only thing I care about.

How is being alone for you? Or if alone is the wrong word, how is not having legitimate connections to other people for you?