Here's a strange turn of events. Yesterday, she had suffered heat exhaustion, which knocked out her memory within the most recent 5 years. Not only that, but she had suffered a breakdown as a result from what I hear from a friend of hers. I periodically get in contact with him through her phone. I don't think he trusts me because he knew her a lot longer then I did, plus he never met me. He had never given her a ride to see me until today, and it was clear why when I saw her. He told me not to let her out of my sight because she wasn't all there. He also warned me to be on guard because she could be dangerous. He knew how she felt about me, yet never gave her a ride to see me until today. The reason was ovious. He seemed to have dumped her on me as a last resort because there seemed like no other way of helping her recover.
At first I really thought there was no way to help her,
When I saw her, she was partially staggering by herself. She was shaking real bad. I was wondering why no one escorted her to me because she wasn't in a good mental condition to be by herself. I called out to her, but she ignored me. I got closer and referred to her by name. She partially glanced at me, but said nothing and kept walking. I asked her if I could walk with her and she barely nodded her head. She wasn't even speaking. So we walked and she didn't seem to be paying attention to me. It seemed more like she wasn't aware that I was there. But I kept talking to her.
Eventually, she spoke in one word sentences. Seemed like riddles, but knowing her, I did a good job of making sense of them. Then she gradually starting speaking more. She asked me who I was and why I had approached her. I told her that I was the one she was talking to earlier today and for a while before. I also told her some bits of how much I knew her. At some point, she accused me of being a spy, hired by the guy who dropped her off. I had to prove to her that I never even met him. I even let her run through my phone to check for his name, to prove that I had no way of contacting him other then through her.
Her memory loss changed her mindset. Her animals were no longer her children. She talked of the pig, chickens, eggs and whatnot as something to skin up, cook and eat. I told her that may not be a good idea, reminding her how she used to love them. Considering that she used to cry when one of her chickens died, she'd never be able to live with herself if she sold her animals into the meat market, and then returned to her original mindset. Plus her love of animals keeps her compassion in check, which makes her a better person.
She tried to leave the mall, so I followed her advising her not to. I didn't attempt to restrain her physically because making a scene at the mall would lead to too much trouble. So I reminded her that the only reason I won't let her out of my sight is to ensure that she is safe. She declared that her health is fine, so I let her walk outside. As soon as she hit the sunlight, she stopped. I walked around her front and into the sun as well. I said, "Do you feel it? This is what happened to you yesterday. This heat is like a poison, it drains your energy. And it will hurt you again."
So she walked back in the mall and we continued to talk. We spent 3 hours together. Toward, the end of that time, she was no longer shaking, she was more talkative and a lot more friendly. In fact, she confessed that she "liked me a lot" and asked me if I was willing to date her. I asked her if this is some kind of test, because we were never dating before. She swore up and down that she really liked me and would really like that.
Considering that she is celebate, that we never kiss and she doesn't like to be touched in any kind of intimate way (limited to hand holding and hugs), a dating relationship with her would be identical to the friendship relationship we had before. And so I agreed to secure her emotional state. I'm not married or dating any one anyways.
Edit: What's really amazing is that, around me, she had went from being psychologically crippled, like a state of being comotose, if that's the word I'm looking for (mentally numb to her sorroundings), to completely stable in just 3 hours. It really seems like there was some kind of magick involved. This quick recovery reinforces what you said about love healing, Goibniu. That was very helpful information that I kept in mind when I saw her.
This post has been edited by Barnard: Jul 20 2010, 08:00 PM
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