Spiritual Entuty Says He's My "father" Options

Hi, first I want to say thank you for your interest and possible help,I've been a lurker here for a long time and... I could use all the help I can get .

A little about me. I'm a ceremonial magician, I started out with The GD , became a Thelemite a few years ago and I've become entranced with Grimoiric magick and old hermetic texts since. Let's just say I've become quite a fan of Lisiewski , having been raised Catholic and being sent to Catholic school I actually resonate quite well with the religious tone of grimoires. So, I've been around the block, but I'm still confused , so I ask for wiser folk to off their 2 cents.


I've had a "shadow man "around me since I was very ,very small. I could sense a darkness coming from my hallway when I was 3. I call it " The hallway at the center of the Universe", lol because there is no apparent reason for a haunting of this sort. The house is just an old ( 40's) California cracker box style house. no history I know of , anyway the entity is...well if it was human it was long ago.

I've dreamed of a cloaked figure since I was a small child,I've night Terrors as long( mostly gone now)

I'll relate my first remembered dream.

small dark creatures are tearing at me , with despair and agony , The cloaked figure tells me " call for Daddy and I'll save you". I didn't know this man, he didn't look like my dad and so I resisted..but at 5 I could only hold out so long. Eventually I called him and he shewed the things away then held me close in a pleasurable embrace ...


Under the cloak he appears Blond, very tall ( perhaps 7 ft.) with a perpetual smirk. He is very interested in Karma,mine and others and seems to have the ability to give people their Karma...slowly or quickly . No more than what they deserve but it can be meted out gently or roughly. He's quite witty and can be terrifying or loving.

He swears to be my " true father " and has since I was a small child .

I've done quite a bit of research and I plan on evoking him personally ( I may have found a NAME ) but I don't want to rely on my most certainly skewed view of him.

If anyone has any thoughts I'd be very interested to hear..and most grateful!


Thank you very much,
Rebelle (IMG:style_emoticons/default/connie_witchy.gif)

He is very interested in Karma,mine and others and seems to have the ability to give people their Karma...slowly or quickly .

I'm going to guess I work with completely different terms here, so, just really fast, what do you mean? How do you define karma, and what occurs when he gives and takes 'karma'?

I'm going to guess I work with completely different terms here, so, just really fast, what do you mean? How do you define karma, and what occurs when he gives and takes 'karma'?

Thank you for the question! I should have known not to use fuzzy words like karma .

I should have said he was interested in justice and was not shy about meting it out. Now it was applied gently rather than harshly in all cases I can recall. When I was a child it might a kid who was extremely mean having something ironic happen in relation whatever happened to instigate the situation. No real damage, it seemed like the intent was that a lesson be learned...but I could be wrong. As I got older he's helped but only when it was needed and he's fairly gentle in my opinion mostly just removing people from my environment if absolutely needed.


I hope that helps,

thanx again Rebelle.