QUOTE(Violet @ Aug 29 2010, 10:57 PM)
Afterwards I somehow found myself annoiting my forehead, left breast. both shoulders and down the middle of my torso with the burnt remains of the spell... Does this mean anything?
Hi Violet,
Three thoughts...
First is that things like this happen in the middle of a spell, they seem dreamlike insofar as they are both impromptu and meaningful (though, like a dream, the meaning is often unclear). I'd say that this is a good sign that you are achieving a good ritual state of mind.
Second thought is that the meaning of this experience is ultimately going to need to be decided in terms of your own personal framework of images and archetypes. From where I'm standing, it almost sounds like you made the sign of the Qabalistic cross from the Golden Dawn's LBRP (or just the sign of the cross, which is many other things in addition to the Christian symbol). I'm not sure what anointing the left breast means; the left breast is specifically pinched/offered in the sign of Mater Triumphus, and thus annointing it
could signify a blessing your own ability to nurture the world and your higher self. Mater Triumphus (http://www.thelemapedia.org/index.php/Image:Sign_isisrejoicing.gif) Take my thoughts with a grain of salt, and consider that your own associations to the actions you took are likely their meaning (or a hint of their meaning).
Third thought is that anointing yourself with the ashes could be a very powerful way of helping the energies/intention flow through you as a vessel. This would be a good thing, and affecting yourself to make a number of subtle changes that result in your goals is a very grounded approach to magick.
I don't know about the symbolism you used in the ritual, but it sounds cool and like your intent was behind it!
Good luck getting rid of the jackass!
This post has been edited by monkman418: Aug 30 2010, 01:31 AM