Is anyone here REALLY wealthy? Options

Is anyone here absolutely minted?


And did you get there via magick or guidance?

okey, no hard feelings (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

I really was confused by the emptiness. it really worried me.
but it seems that my worrying was worse than the feeling itself.
Then, for lack of a better word, i just let go. I stopped caring all together and began enjoying.
I remember that the emptiness scared me those days, i thought that i needed a purpose, but there is no purpose once you let go all material cravings. Sure, i still have material cravings, but not enough to direct my life to one. Any material goal would have no meaning to me, and spiritual life is a path, not a goal, so there was no purpose to be found anywhere.

Then i just let go.
Its like deliberately letting go, i just said to myself
"f*ck it, i don't care anymore, so what if i feel empty, i have no need for anything, f*ck it all to hell"
That is almost literary what i thought one day. It no longer bothered me after that, i would just observe calmly, and then i came to the following conclusions:

i found the emptiness has a tendency to fill with various emotions rather easily. love, hate, especially anger. Sometimes that can be hard, when roused with anger it can be mind-blowing. The same can be said when looking into the eyes of a loved one. Emotions seem to flow into it. Thats how i found a way to keep it filled with a love kind of emotion. I can put on a happy sound, look into the sky and start filling myself with love. It lasts a while, but it has a tendency to keep filling itself. Its fun to meditate that way.
Its even easier to keep filled with anger, but also rather painful.

I also found that the emptiness can get filled with a sad kind of feeling that seems empty. the true emptiness exists for me only a short while after meditation. Then it fills with the first emotion i have, i cannot keep it empty, so instead i keep it filled with love.

I hope it makes sense, i have no source for this except my own experience...
perhaps i am just a deluded fool. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/8.gif)