My path (at the moment) has taken me away from magick, I describe it as being beyond magick. I don't mean that in an arrogant way, to try and make out that I am so powerful that I no longer need to do magick. What I mean is that I have seen the falacy (for me) of trying to control the universe. All I can do is to reprograme myself, to change my perspective, rather than try and take control of the universe.
It is all part of the process of letting go, learning to desire but not to have attachment to those desires. These are concepts you can read about in any Zen or Buddhist book and understand on an intellectual level, but to actually achieve these things is very difficult. I sit Zazen and appear calm on the outside, and yet this masks an inner turmoil.
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