Perhaps you have been too focused on not feeling and only seeing. Try to take a step back from this and not try so hard. For the longest time, I had such trouble doing psi balls for healing, then a friend said "stop trying so hard" I (of course) got annoyed and said screw it and quit. When I came back to it I told myself "doesn't matter whatever" and damn if it didn't work and I have been not having any trouble with it since. it is hard to make the mind be quiet and stop focusing on one particular thing, but sometimes that is all you need. An exercise that I was taught a while ago (that may be of help) was that if you can see it in your head, mentally push the image down to your hands and retain the visualization in your hands until you can no longer see it but rather feel it. You may see the energy in differing hues and colors, but it should coincide with the visual image in your mind. Anyway, hope that makes sense and helps a bit.
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Quietness is master of the dead.
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