Kundalini, All On It's Own Options

Alright. So, I've been interested in Kundalini for some time now, but I've never attempted it. Although, recently I experienced something which I could only explain as Kundalini. I was sitting and meditating at my friend's house, pondering my true connection with the universe to a greater degree than I ever have before, when my root chakra seemed to just burst forth with new energy. I couldn't even feel my lower body all that well, so I thought that maybe my keys and wallet in my back pockets were pushing on my nerves. I took them out and set them next to me, but despite anything I did or how I sat that energy only spread even further.

Being a practitioner of occult studies, I decided to just ignore any odd looks I might get from my friends and feel the energy and inspect it. This next part is hard to explain. I felt, and in some strange way saw, a line of energy coiling around a point in my lower body. I immediately remembered what I knew of Kundalini and assumed it was that.

So, I decided to look up others' experiences with Kundalini. To my disappointment, they only described more advanced stages of Kundalini, such as when it is fully awoken. Although, I read that people undergoing Kundalini often dream of, and come across, snakes and fire. I don't remember my dreams from last night very well, but when I was a little kid, I had the most vivid dream that two white snakes bit me on either leg. The meaning of this dream has eluded me for the greater part of my life. This was before I practiced magick, but I was thinking that maybe I was more naturally prone to such things as this when I was younger and simply lost my belief in such things until later on in my life.

Also, I came across many different names for Kundalini while I was looking it up a moment ago. Holy Wind, Serpent Fire, Seiki, Lung..... and, as I was surprised to see, Vital Winds. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

This "coincidence" with my forum name and a name for Kundalini, coupled with my dream from when I was a child has left me almost certain that I was meant to undergo Kundalini. But, of course, I'm sure anyone who has experienced Kundalini was meant to.

And, of course, I come to our occult community to ask for advice from anyone who has experience with Kundalini, or might know of a good book on the subject.

Questions are also welcome.

Thank you both.

Vagrant, sometimes your words inspire me. Other times they molest my fragile preconceptions about attaining enlightenment.
This time has been both.

Thank you both.

Vagrant, sometimes your words inspire me. Other times they molest my fragile preconceptions about attaining enlightenment.
This time has been both.

I went through a lot of the same tracks that you seem to have been going through, just looking at what you've included on the forum. We're probably cut from similar cloth as it were.

I've recently been having to learn a lot of very mundane skills while I build this business at home, from accounting and book-keeping to marketing and advertising. I've had to learn how to be the boss, too, which is really awkward for me still. It's really reminded me how one-sided my education has been over the past couple of decades. Some of the same skills still apply in different ways, but my ideas of what it meant to run a successful business have been shattered on the rocks of reality along the shores of success. Through it I keep reminding myself that acknowledgment of total ignorance means freedom from the illusion of knowing. Freedom from that illusion means total flexibility in development.

I know it's difficult to both have goals in life and also live in the present moment, but I don't think that enlightenment is really a goal that you can set. Enlightenment isn't, I think, so much something that we attain, as it is something we realize. And, I don't think you have to realize it all at once. Short moments of endless enlightenment keep me balanced and useful, just the moment of sitting back and truly letting go of all attachment or preconception for just a moment. Just for that moment, you can have total clarity to see things just as they are and be okay with it and at peace with yourself and your world. I have not yet managed to be both enlightened and functional at the same time. But it has demonstrated, for me, that it is some kind of inner nature that we cultivate over time.

It's this experience that has made me start examining 'moods of power'; something originally, I think, coined in the Castaneda books. Don Juan tells Carlos, "Power is a mood." Castaneda's expertise or reliability aside, the concept has merit.

peace