Just wanted to say that I lost an old "friend" who was sort of my only true mentor in Magick after asking him about the books of Moses.
He simply said "Don't ever contact me again".
First of all this guy was like straight to the point teacher/brother with a loose and tough tongue without caring what he thought, he was a lot older than me. In the beginning he was eager to help me out and always told me a bunch of good books and online books to read and learn and check about AMORC and do the LBRP daily and meditate, but by that time I wasn't to focused on the path and studies where in the way. He of course got tired of me being so distant and not consistent with the subject and having a Christian background with my family and stuff I really had a very confused Magick point of view back then.
Lately during this last two months I contacted him again and he noticed I have changed and have read and have more knowledge and am more focused and he sort of invited me to join his new group of study but he was just testing me out and he warned me a lot and even warned me that I only had access to certain information of the crew studies and books recommendations and that's it, no meetings no interaction... then I totally screwed it being kicked of his "friendship".
This is the reason why I decided to simply study on my own and become a solitary apprentice in Wizardry. Hopefully and soon now with my new job I will get enough to join a Rosicrucian group and might even find a true mentor in there.
I just don't get it why he had to simply send the whole friendship downhill because of that question, I do admit he was very impatient with some of my questions and is a very arrogant person who always want's attention and leadership.
Sighs... I guess this is God trying to help me out, maybe it was for the better after all.
This post has been edited by Harkadenn: Oct 8 2011, 02:18 AM
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