Mystic - I don't have a whole lot of experience with ceremonial magick, but I'm definitely open to it. Most of the meditations I've been doing specifically for this issue have been just very general - I was trying to "mellow out" energy and found it helped in delaying my reaction, but not in getting rid of it.
Lantern - I did suspect it was an association but I suppose I should clarify - I don't get the reaction around all (or even most) men, only ones I have strong emotional feelings for. Physical attraction seems to not be a part of it. I've tried hypnotherapy and even things such as accupuncture (for anxiety) but they haven't worked. I've done the whole "talk yourself through it" and tried anxiety medications as well as acid reflux medications to avoid getting sick. I don't really get nervous when speaking to men, but perhaps it is a subconscious thing.
Also, thankfully the men have been good sports about it and don't make me feel horrible about myself, but let's be honest - getting sick isn't exactly the most attractive thing.
Thanks to both of you for your help - I wasn't respecting a response so quickly!
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