My first recommendation comes from the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn.
It is called the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (LBRP). You don't need any special ritual tools or elaborate regalia to perform it. Just a quiet place where you won't be disturbed.
I tried to write out the proper instructions here but I am not able to attach the proper visual aids here.
So Instead I would like to give you a PDF of Modern Magick by Donald Micheal Kraig. It has the ritual instructions given in clear and easy to understand terms.
You won't need to read the entire book or take up the whole practice of high magick (unless you want to). Simply practicing this one ritual could help you.
The LBRP can be used to banish negative expressions of the four elements and establish equalibrium between them.
In the second half the ritual you evoke four Archangels who preside over those elements. What is not told on the book is that, after you have completed the ritual, you can take time to offer prayers directly to the archangels before bidding them a proper farewell.
In your case, I think asking for help from Archangel Raphael (who can be called on for healing in matters of both mind and body) and Archangel Gabriel (who presides over Water: Which corresponds to deep emotions) would be appropriate.
Another approach would be to examine your natal astrology. There may be a planetary influence directly tied to this problem. If that is the case, there is magic that can be done to counter it. If you wish, I can take a look for you. I would need the date, time, year, and (if possible) the exact hour and minute of your birth, as well as the city you were born in. There is a lot of information in your natal chart. You can send the birth time to me via PM if you don't want to post it here.
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