Just wondering if anyone else.., keeps their practices secret? Options

Hello everyone, I live with my parents (since im but a teenager) and I'm keeping all my practices and beliefs in magick a secret from my parents because they are very skeptical to things such as that and they would think Im crazy if they knew half of the magick I know/practice. Does anyone else keep their practices a secret from friends/family or am I the lone ranger? Any advice on holding secretive rituals/ getting required materials without anyone knowing? Am I doing the right/wrong thing?

Please note that it is highly likely if my parents found out what I do they would make me stop (IMG:style_emoticons/default/fie.gif)

(IMG:style_emoticons/default/rolleyes.gif) Greetings!

When I first made the concerted effort to partake in a 'pathworking' and development group ... which was nearly 16 years ago when I was 24 ... my parents; the best part of my family; work colleagues and long standing friends were ALL against me being in the group. I was subjected to threats and blackmails from family and work colleagues to give it all up. Family threatened to disown me at one time as they were convinced I was dealing with black magic. My boss at work threatened to sack me and my immediate boss (who was methodist) went as far as going to see my parents and convince them I needed serious help! I lost my best friends too (long story) ....

BUT I STUCK AT IT ..... I developed/remembered/practised in secret then ... making new friends ... my firm going bust (ha .. nice spell) .... and my family eventually realising the benefits of me coming to terms with the 'strangeness' of my personality ...

Now sixteen years later ... I am married to a wonderful woman (no seriously) who thinks that magic is giving her tarot and rune readings on demand. She comments to the friends and anyone who listens how 'deep my hubbie goes' and how good he is at clairvoyance ...

When I point out that tarot readings are but a minor part of it all and a 'titbit' along the road ... she clams up and blames my magickal workings for our lack of wealth. She keeps demanding I get the lotto numbers so we can be millionaires ... she ridicules me for not wanting fame (I have turned down TV appearances; trailer demo shows; newspaper interviews) .... I call myself the 'reluctant medium' wishing to be in obscurity ...

My appearance on this forum and others is a bone of contention with her ... she is on an ex-pats forum on the net for hours upon hours which is ok but I go on here for more than an hour and it is grief ...

Much therefore of my workings through semantic writings; meditations; illustrations; sigils is done in private and in secret ....

It has been the case for the best part of my life ....

I personally prefer the lone magickian side to it .... I work best that way ...

Most of my work takes place like now .... between 10 pm and midnight .... when wife and kids are asleep ... I will go to bed after the wife and spend an hour in a meditation before sleeping ... Okay I have double the protection and barriers to create to prevent my very psychic wife coming on the journeys ... but it works ...

I password all my journals and volumes of semantic verses (white grimoires) ...

So all I do is in secret effectively ....!!!

I thus find it hard to share info at times on this forum ... and get all kinds of grief for not putting info in the right way or bursting in on a thread .... I am a solitary being and it is hard to be with folk of the same ilk!!

Ha

This post has been edited by Mr_Merlin: Jul 9 2005, 04:23 AM