Several spirits, one Caused Bleeding, Please identify and analyze Options

Many years ago I began to have intense visitations, within the first year of shamanic and white ceremonial practice. While sleeping, and sometimes while awake, I would see featureless golem-like(no hands, feet, face etc) humanoid shapes formed usually of a grey or black smoke that would walk through objects or be halfway throught the floor. They shocked and frightened me and I recall a skinny blackish one walking halfway through my bed that filled me with horror that it might pass through my body, while an unusually large white one that seemed to understand 'floor' and 'objects' bent slowly over my bed to inspect me. It almost seemed to know me, and my initial alarm at the white one faded to a sense that it might be protective or something as it merely stayed put and did nothing, but appeared repeatedly. Then I distinctly heard a man's voice chanting from the foot of my bed, but like an accidental phone wire cross, not intended for projection and occuring elsewhere. Then I was wrenched out-of-body to a collection of individuals who seemed human, seemed to have some sort of council or group concensus, and certainly practiced ceremonial magic with stunning skill and a casual disintrest in light and dark. They said they had been waiting for me to manifest again, the time was interminable, and they wanted a tangeble expression of my true magical energy, right then, so they could integrate, but not the 'paltry white' internal & mystical forms I had limited myself to. I freaked and became angry, that they were dark (hindsight-were they?)and made assumptions about using me. I exuded waves of blocking, concealing and severing force, violently.
For weeks, I saw nothing but normal people auras. Then, while half awake/astral, the really strong one came. I saw a slender man with curly hair that writhed into the flames rolling off him. The fire glowed with a black halo instead of light, and his face had a loki-like expression he walked out of the barren-between astral of manifestation where I was trapped. He was extremely intelligent and charming and feral and was offering me some kind of deal. I was momentarily curious and he linked in on that moment and was doing as he liked before I could answer. I then felt something black and octopus-like with too many eyes and tendrils IN MY WOMB with manifest links and realized he would use me to astral birth(or posess a real fetus, if possible) And freaked out, purging and pulling away desperately. It was a terrifingly strong and aware entity, and, well, it chose to leave because I was uncooperative, I couldn't remove it... I returned to the physical bleeding from my nose and sex(not preg, not period) in shock and in pain. Can anyone name him? Are they all linked events or none? I need some helpful info here.

noted, but I was inquiring for a magical dissection/analysis of the entities - as in what, why, and who, not for the emotional support of a group.(Thanks, though) I really need some critical analysis, here. My intent is exploratory. Also, I no longer have white/black issues, nor do I still limit myself to mysticism- which requires that I identify, understand and formulate a proper method of handling such things alone should I encounter them pathworking or travelling. Also, I want to KNOW what they are and what they do. Anything seem recognizable to anyone? Are there any summoned or created things that resemble them?