I know EXACTLY what you mean...however, I have been assuming if I learned more about structured systems such as the kabbala, I would find that one of these realities with entities was a part of a mapped plane- between sephiroth, a circle of hell, a level of the merkaba riders, etc. Unfortunately, in the end I am left with a practical knowledge of plane X and no language to explain or discuss it with anyone. As for the hunters, it seems to really vary as to where you are... if they use a tiny pocket universe, and utilize both a repetitive time loop and strong drain while saturating you with interference, your cognitive awareness is shot and your instincts are derailed. I need to use a tiny further surge of Will fed to instinctive survival mechanism, without involving my mind, to relocate outside of the trap; and then nuclear strength shield and propulsion astral flares to return and wake up NOW. One of my strongest tools is the person I sleep beside, who is a conscious dreamer. I keep a tether at all times and my instinct follows it blindly back to this plane in an emergency, as well as the one to my body. Remember that you can use one persons paradigm as transport out of your own, and then stay long enough to recuperate. His ability to walk right back into my dreams, force the energies into his own reality, and devour anything piggybacking or parasitic like they were snack treats also helps with the whole 'time to recoup my defenses' thing. Just as followers can intensify a paradigm, willful independent company can derail it. A talented working partner you can call that has completely different ideas from your own could be an asset in averting madness.
As to your office experience, or 'reality shift' as you call it, you were SPECIFICALLY feeling the effect of being half here, half grounded, half in the astral, not-tidy-enough-with-the-threads-to-the-last-place-you-were, etc. Often felt after travelling long distances astrally or raising energy and not releasing the excess charge properly, it can pop up randomly hours,days or weeks later- I assume this happenened after you began 'travelling'? ....What you have to do is learn to regroup your sense of self, aura, shields, reality and 'being in the now' that is your natural state, and do so deliberately after you return from a trip. Why? Helicopters need stable landing pads to refuel and take repairs. So do you. Being able to choose a mundane state is essential. Food, laughter, and grounding objects or people can be helpful to come fully back. Pagans send excess energy and connections deep into the absorbant earth and away.
This post has been edited by silenus: Jul 28 2005, 01:30 AM
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