We're On A Roll Here Options

The past 4 or 5 nights have been very very odd. The biggest "oddity" is my inability to sleep at night. I'm tired, but I cannot sleep until the sun starts to come up. I don't feel comfortable at night anymore. I want to be around people, but I don't. I don't want to be in my rooms, but I do.

Three nights ago I was laying in my bed reading, my cat Chloe was sleeping next to me, and on my right side, a face appeared by my book. Caught completely off gaurd, it spooked me.

Everytime I'm about to close my eyes, shortly after I turn my lamp out, fear begins to well up and I have to turn that lamp back on as fast as I can.

By the bedroom door, there are always these black orbs at night, twice I've seen them during the day. The head of my bed faces the door, so I can't help but see them.

Since I've moved into this house, I've always seen this little ball of white floating on the ground upstairs, which never bothered me because I know it's my roommates old dog, Tilly. She loved the upstairs, so she hangs here often. But tonight, when I sat down at my computer, I Really saw her. At first I thought it was Chloe sneaking underneath the chair so she can sit in her usual spot before my feet. But she never sat there....it was Tilly.

That very peaceful lucid state you reach right before falling asleep has been ridiculously noisy for me as of late too. Everytime, I hear voices yelling. Just one or two words at a time, enough to snap me back to full conciousness. This morning it was a mans' voice. I've never heard a mans' voice before, always they where female.

When I walk between the two houses at night, I'm friggen scared. I've never been scared of the dark until recently. I seriously don't understand what's going on here. It could be due to the full moon, but activity like this has happened to me before and it's never freaked me out so much as it is now. I can't stand not having a light on anymore. Chloe isn't frightened everytime these appearances occur, which I know should be a consolation, but it's not helping.

That fear is a tight coil in my tummy, and it happens at any given moment, mostly at night.

I have a long history in Wicca and witchcraft, and could very easily cast a few spells around here. My roommate is certainly cool with that idea, but I don't think she would be too cool to learn that I'm being haunted by....things. She spooks very easily, she can see and talk to the deceased, and it really upsets her sometimes. So bringing this up right now wouldn't be too wise, y'know?

What my point really is, is anyone else experiencing an increase in activity? Because I really don't want to feel alone in this right now. And if anyone can suggest possible causes, it would seriously be greatly appreciatted. I would rather exhaust every other means before resorting to spell work for this one.

Namaste

bym, dear...don't worry about being "cutsy" or anything, lol. Your input is seriously valueable no matter how you put it.

The salt water sounds like a good idea, I don't want to rid of too many vibrations, it is helping me give incrediably phenomenal readings, lol. I'm certainly going to brew up some "Holy Water" if you must very shortly here!

I totally forgot about the equinox (bad! lol), and it certainly does help explain a little of what's been going on. The fear I have is so...internal. Sometimes it really doesn't even feel likes it my own, y'know? If that makes much sense, heh. Another factor I completely forgot about, is I'm about to get my moon flow...which is common for increasing personnal awareness on a spiritual level. I forgot due to the fact that I like, never get it, and I have to force it now with the pill. So it's something I don't generally hold much thought too anymore.

The orbs being thoughtforms...I must ask that you explain that a little more, I don't really have much of an understanding with that, so it's a touch confusing. Having them appear in broad daylight does suck arse, and it's always in one spot by the door. I should probably call back my gaurdians...I've not needed them around and just gave them leave to do as they will (it gets boring sitting around twiddling your thumbs or claws or whatever, lol).

I almost considered asking for a reading earlier today too...which goes completely against my nature. Being a reader, you generally don't care too much about getting your own cards read. Having that thought stressed me out some, only in extreme times have I gotten a reading (twice my entire life).

I could be overreacting, it would be typical of me to do such, lol. But there really isn't much comfort in that thought.

I feel so spiritually emo right now, lol.