The book discription of Goap I've read, and I have his sigil, but again I've never worked with him personally so I'm hesitant still to take a position on his use. As for Michael, it would seem to me he has made a great number of enemies, though his power makes him allies as well. Like all angels, if your asking me, there purpose is the message, not us, although I have to remember that Dee and Kelly were made pawns of by the angels to transcribe sacred knowledge, so in the instance that you really are being made a pawn, most presedence I've read would take the position that your merely a tool to be used for there purpose, which is most often knowledge. But in the case of Dee and Kelly, Kelly was the medium and Dee the interperter, they were two parts of a whole, and were never given permission to make practice of that which they transcribed... My advice to you at this point is, stop trying to overanalyze, and Banish. Banish every room and inch of your house, as well as every cell in your body. Then do it again, and again, and again until that little voice inside of you starts feeling calm again and without fear...and when in doubt, banish again, use salt, lemon, holy water, whatever, but whatever you use, use alot of it and do it until you feel confertable, becuase in your confused state of mind, if you continue it could lead to bad bad things. Not that I'm responsible for you, but if your asking me, in my most humble opinion, that is what I suggest at this point. Confusion is no state of mind to practice anything. You wouldn't play with high voltage electronics if you were so confused you couldn't tell a wire from a circuit, you might get electrocuted, its kind of the same thing here. †Christopher Raven†
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"Now I want, spirits to enforce and art to enchant, and my ending is dispair, unless I be relieved by prayer...And as you from your crimes would pardoned be, let your indulgence set me free" W.S. The Tempest - Pospero
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