The way of a warrior empath, ways empathics work Options

Well here i am again iv been here and there and ever where on this forum trying to learn my way in to the higher ranks so im going to just ask for once since im so very tired of having goggel or whatever yelled at me. To the point iv been told on many a comment use your empath as a starting point learn about it and use it weild it well here i am asking.

What is empathic ability exactuly to start off with i know it is a base mental ability can be dormant and awoken or breed through years of mental enegerys in a human child.

I also already know that it works somthing like a receptor of others emotions and feelings whice with enough brain power put in to it can somtimes lead a person to be able to read others thoughts or just hit the target enough to make them spill the beans as well i know from experince.

And last but not least i also know that if a human has this ability and dos not know how to control it or shield from it then they lose complete control and there mental psychie is shatterd like glass on the hood of a taxi cab i also know this from having it happen to me i am only still alive because i learned to not block my empathy but just drown it out with certin things but there are times when my own demonic like rage (whice i have no idea where it comes from) tips to breaking point because of all the emotions i get hit with to the point that i feel like im not even in the world any more.

My question is simple i want to know the best and most effective notice i say EFFECTIVE methode of controling this and weilding it to my own gains if need be im not evil nor am i good but this ability could be used for somthing unique if i knew every handle i could grab hold of it see what i mean.

I also want to know how this could ability could be used in battle no doubt it could be used to sense rage or hostility from a person but i would need to know who it was coming from else not much good is it more so if i have a distance on this ability i could be feeling the emtions of an angery goat hearder in new zeland.
Pluse if it is possiable to weild it like a weapon against spirits or beasts much like a shriek spirit wails inside a persons mind to stun them so they can take the body or destory it.

understand iv spent my whole life knowing there is magick out there iv felt it all around me at all times as a kid it was so accute that i craved it like a drug somthing to have i needed i knew demons and monsters where real just like all the people who controled them i knew magick was there and pshycics where as real as the things going on in the news and that i was drawn to them i was at least hoping i was meant to be apart of that world iv read books here and there but i still trust in blind instincte alone much like a mage with a dowsing rod threw fate in to the wind hoping that stick would find water or what he was looking for.

So please help me out if you feel the need to put me in my place then do so i will not deny i dont know enough to have a valid argument against your statings i only ask for help please and that i be given a shadow of a doubt that im not some punk kid just trying to get rich quick of beat up on some bully with a curse that hurt me in the old grades im just me strange magick bent and hoping one day ill understand enough to have it be a full time gig well ttfn and thank you for an who help.

I will say as much as i can that im sorry and forgive me for being unclear in my wishes indeed, I could have been wrong in those things for years i thought i really and truly was wrong, But how can i be wrong when ever thing i knew to be true was Belived by so many other people as well, If Im wrong in that assumption then i will learn that in due time.

Also battle, fighting, These are just word's I choose to use and where misunderstood, I will be more clear in my future replys, Forgive me on the matter. When i said ranks i just meant to be apart of the paranormal community, that life style I have no military meaning behind it.

What is it I would like to gain most easily put is freedom, I would like freedom from just the simple bee hive manner of the world. As stuiped as your going to make this sound after you reply, I want to be like merlin was just out side the norm, enjoying the use of his ability to control more then just the path of his own life if you can understand this then im done.

I understand that empathy do's not allow me to hear others feelings. I understand that im able to feel others feeling and i know a thought is not a feeling, What I was trying to say was that if I know enough about the person, or use enough common sense, and am of at least some semi intellegince then i could come up with what they are thinking. Example i feel a person is sad and i know they have a bad home life, but they are hiding there sadness then through common sense and my own empathic ability, I can assume that most likely its a home problem they are suffering from that is what I meant.

I understand it takes those kind of focuses to do it, But that still dos not tell me in what manner i should focuse them, In what way i should direct them or how i could tell if somthing is even happing at all, or if my mind was making it up that is is mostly what i meant.

Like i said before also battle is just a misunderstood word, There is no need to fight and i do not think there is some great battle going on, Im not incrediably unbalanced between the spiritual world and physical reality. Im very stuck in the physical reality and understand It , But it dos not change my dislike for it. I do not wish to exploit it for violence, If you would read carfuly what i said i wish to learn ways i can use it to avoide danger, battles , or whatever bad moment i could walk in to like. I said if i could feel the anger coming from some one then I COULD DO SOMTHING ABOUT IT, That dos not mean it would have to be in a negitive way. You just assumed i would use it towards negative means the law of carma do not stop for any man more so me I do not seek to incure there wrath.

Its not easy for me to talk about this or even ask for help because, Along time ago when everone around me told me i was insane for beliving that magick or anything even was out there. Then they had me commeted on my 15th birthday because i had put protection runes in my door fram saying i had lost touch with reality. No need to tell me im unbalanced, I got that enough for doing the stuff most of the people do here on this site on a reguler bases. I just asked fairly just incorrectly and im sorry, You know nothing about me so i understand your point of out look on my comments, I understand the questions but understand, Im doing all that i can with nothing and ever body in my life against it. Im not having an easy time with this.

Forgive the temper but it makes me very upset to be told im in balanced when im quite clear on the fact im very balanced, Took 2 doctors telling my family that before they would belive it.

On a side note i dont even know what a spirital war is so it would not be possiable for me to be apart of it.

Im sorry for how i had acted when i wrote this, I hope its more clear im not a good typest. I really just want to learn everying i can with my ability and the full extent of things i could do weilding it. And I wish only to Help with my abilitys, and harm nobody through those means till later.

And thank you Bb3 for reading and replaying, I thank you I'v been teaching myself but have felt what you said to be true for long time just unable to get somthing like that at the moment. A teacher I mean.

Hope this was typed better and well enough to read ~bows~