QUOTE(53Ose53 @ Nov 2 2005, 03:41 PM)
I am obsessed with evoking this spirit for a number of reasons. The most important reason I supose would be is that I feel I kind of connection with Ose. I cant really explain it (thats why I want him to be my first rather than vagasso who I heard may be a good start), and dont really want to embarrass my self trying.
The reason why I got scared when I saw that face is because I was just simply looking into my mirror, I wasnt trying to envoke or call anyone to me he just showed up. I wouldnt be as scared of Ose because of that connection (is it naturall to have a connection with a demon?).
When first performing the LBRP I couldnt focus on them as much. I have been practicing that ritual and it is getting easier to see the circle and the pentagrams with out focusing on them as much as my first time (The Archangels still need some work).
I never did scyring, envoking, banishment, ritual work, talisman or sigil creation before. At that age I just stuck with spell casting.
Yes, lots of people (inc. me) do have connections with a particular demon. So, this being the case, even the more reason to practice the basics of magic daily. One must build up their strength and their will, as well as their magical energy/power to work with these forces and stay sane. Just because the connection is there, does not mean that it is a good idea for a young and inexperienced magician to go rushing into things. There is your whole life ahead of you to get to know Ose, no hurry (IMG:
style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) I would recommend concentrating more on the foundation practices so that you are a kick butt magician with a strong control of magical forces.
Athena