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could someone lead me to a good site on the subject of necromancy. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/happy.gif)

Thats just it...I dont know whats calling out to me. I feel death around me and I can feel energy in the shape of spirits swirling around me and if I choose I can pull them into my "center" and I get stronger because of it. As of right now I feel as if I could just go out and take apart the world. But I doubt it. But what I can do is amazing now. I can leap off of a 12 foot roof (Im about 5' 8") over a distance of 10 feet and land perfectly on my feet and not even feel it! My brother had a steak knife and I grabed the blade and squeezed as hard as I could and it took him all his strength to get it out of my hand and even then I bled not! I have always had gifts but these are way out of the normal! I dont know what it means. Has my calling found me? I got ahold of my brother, who is some form wiccan, and asked him for some help and he had me recite some ritual for healing, strength, and energy. I can actually feel souls and spirits around me right now if I tried. I am just very confused. I also feel demons at times and sometimes they feel like allies or enemies and sometimes when I feel more powerful than ever I feel as if I am a demon myself! I came here for answers and to find if I am the only one like this. Any advise?

And i dont know which copy I read. It was a paperback copy that had a spellbook and it was published by Aliester Crowley who said that the Mad Arab wrote it. Hopefully that helps. There are alot of them out but I didnt releize that it there was more than one version. I destroyed my copy.

This post has been edited by Zetsumei Ryu: Nov 3 2005, 02:57 PM