QUOTE(Zetsumei Ryu @ Nov 3 2005, 09:54 PM)
Thats just it...I dont know whats calling out to me.I can leap off of a 12 foot roof (Im about 5' 8") over a distance of 10 feet and land perfectly on my feet and not even feel it! My brother had a steak knife and I grabed the blade and squeezed as hard as I could and it took him all his strength to get it out of my hand and even then I bled not!
My advice... stop any kind of reading about occult/magick/wicca right now. Walk away, don't look back. When you have a grasp of reality again then you might be okay to study this stuff, but until then go and play ball in the park.
IMHO you are just roleplaying here. Occult/Magick forums have a lot of roleplayers... they don't tend to last very long.