newbie, dealing with new abilities and energies Options

As many of you know I have started a large amount of converse in the two topics Ive posted on. I believe that if this is a matter to be discussed, than it shouldnt be done on someone elses topic and hinder them from obtaining any information that they might need.

Lately I have been dealing with alot of changes to my limits and abilities. If you already know what they are than I have no need to repeat them.

A long story short, I have recently discovered magick as some might say but the difference is, I discovered this from no book and no spell. I kinda fell into it. I have shown many signes that what I have fell into deals with necromancy but it also has alot to do with elements, or at least it seems. In all honesty the thought of necromancy is kinda scary but then again many things have been misunderstood in this world. Lately I have been very confused about what to do and seem to be forgetting reality.

If you have anything to say about anything please do.

(IMG:style_emoticons/default/angel.gif) ... and through the eyes of angels, archangels we all live in a world of delusion.

Each and everyone of us go about our daily lives hoping what we appear to others as normal and acceptable. We all strive to conform and to be accepted. We sometimes forget our own feelings and our own inner dialect; often we will undertake tasks and life patterns which we despise just to conform and be accepted.

Isn't this the greatest delusion of them all?

Through my eyes, any practitioner of magic who uses its potent force to reshape their lives to live a life more suited to what the inner self requires isn't delusional .... despite much of their viewpoints and actions appearing delusional on the outside through the eyes of others. How can we determine what is delusional in another's life if we are not living that life?

Opinionation of others and chastisement of others for not conforming to our own viewpoint of self may well be the greatest delusion of all since it is that which we have been programmed to think like.

I see all who practice magick in whatever form brave ... braver than those who accept the conditioned and programmed life which is set for them .... and never complain ... who comply to the rules and the regulations of human society without question.

He or she who accepts any form of magick (white, black ... delusional or whatever) is permitting a powerful biochemical and biomagnetic force to come into their lives and turn it upside down. The first actions of magick are in the inside, out of view of prying eyes. Inner changes will change the perceptions of the magician to think and feel like the true inner self.