Ok, so a long time ago in about April of 2009, I wondered if it was possible to create an entity. So I tried to create one with pure thought. I put into him, to love me, some sex desire stuff, protect me, and to be with me. This was my first entity creation attempt. It worked; but there was a big problem. After I created him, I fell asleep and came to me in a dream. He was in really bad pain, it was emotional suffering. He kept saying, "make it stop, please make it stop!" In that dream I could feel his pain, it was bad, it was like nothing I ever felt before in my life (and I've been through a lot). I couldn't stop crying that whole day. I did ask St. Michael to destroy him that same day, but he was gone for awhile and came back to me, it's been a long time that he has been around, and he still hasn't attacked me or anything mean like that. I think St.Michael didn't destroy him, because he knew I could use him later, but I'm just not sure how yet.
I am learning more about him. He was my first creation, when I created him I knew nothing about creating entities. After creating him, I looked it up online and then found information on the subject, but by then he was already created.
To try and stop his suffering, I tried a spell (similar to the one used to create my other entity, who I already posted about and still have a hard time finding, he does show up sometimes though), that didn't work, I tried healing him with my energy (kind of like reiki), that didn't work, I tried using thought, that didn't work either.
I think I'm supposed to take his energy apart and recreate him to get rid of the suffering, because it seems to be at the core of his being, not like a side part that I can just take away. Anyone know how to do that? I have no reason to destroy him because it's been this long and he hasn't attacked me even with the fact that I'm probably the reason he feels so bad, due to not knowing what I was doing at the time. So how can I take him apart and remake him, but have still be the same servitor?
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