Hello. Last few years Im getting obsessed with committing suicide. Now at the point I know I will. Im 47 year old male with no money, job, family and future. And for the most part I hate the way system is setup, its rigged and a rat race. Everything I try never works and I suspect life is playing joke on me, like its in a program to be that way and nothing I can do. Im tired and I dont feel like fighting because life is fight right....? Im just ready to quit. I didnt write this for anyone to be sorry for me and try for help. Im pretty much sure im done and thats ok. I did DMT trips few times, so I know this reality is matrix anyway. Any adwise how to be fully gone from this plane and not leave my phanthom?

Thanks,
Aquarius