A long time ago, I took a spiritual/magickal name based off of what seemed to be one of my names in a dream. A long time ago, I used to be a white knight named "Ulric."

So, logically, I chose to go with that name....not smart.

(At this point on, "Ulric," will be described as "he" in second person to denote my distance and estrangement from association with that name and energy.)

"Ulric," as it seemed, when used today and in this life, became a superperverted version of a cleric who tried to be a cheap knockoff of Enki's field of expertise. Ulric was perverted, immature, selfish, and unstable, but there was NO match on earth when creating certain esoteric correlations, formulae, and innovative magickal methods. He had one main flaw, the same I carry over: Cannot astral project. He titled himself "Xenomancer," after the Greek etymology of "Worker of the strange/Divinator by unknown (means/methods/knowledge/wisdom/ethic)."

After a while, he -stepped on too many toes-, and from what I know, Ulric has either been done away with, or sealed for going insane from magickal addictions. Since then, I have taken his title for myself, as Xenomancer, to still undergo and investigate the unknown realms of magick and mysticism, but not at such a dangerous and feverish pace as this once-active wayward counterpart.

Ever since I have underwent living as "Ulric," and then being sealed away as him, I feel as if my mind had a governor device on it when trying to think (allegorical metaphor to comparing my mind to an engine). I cannot hypnotize myself, because if I try, I forget the point I was trying to instill. I forget theses when orating at anytime, unless it has been written. My sense of passion from deep within has been shot, and now all things I pursue, I either do not pursue at all, or pursue at a rate of slow cautiousness with the undertone of paranoid suspicion to all things around me (hey, what can I say, I'm a Loyalist personality with a bad experience with failing myself with my goals, especially when letting myself down and getting sidetracked!)

In hopes to do away with all of this, I was wondering if there was a way to get rid of ALL spiritual associations with Ulric, his name, and whatnot, and try to go to where I wanted to be all along? (ref. Thread: "Help Identify Description!") And if I did, is it feasible to find another name? How WOULD I go about rescinding my old name, and if possible, appeal clemency to the spirit within and spirit about? Secondary: If I were to expell this Ulric from my essence, would my "psychic limiter" be removed?

I would be EXTREMELY greatful for help, and in return, I would be glad to help out when sought out.