Greetings to the fellow magickians of this group.
My interests and infatuation with the
occult arts began more than a few years ago however, i am planning my
first ritual evocation, specifically of Marbas the Goetic President,
very soon. I will be using Konstantino's method of astral evocation
however i slightly altered it after having watched a video of an
angelic astral evocation.
Concerning tools, i will not be using a wand/sword. For the
triangle, i asked my friend to lend me a wooden triangle about a
suitable size; it can be found on a regular pool table ( its the
triangle that sets up all the balls all neatly). My magick mirror
will be purchased very soon; i am creating it by buying a picture
frame and spraypainting the back of the glass black.My incense will
be frankincence and mur. And as for the circle, in konstantino's book
he doesn't speak of a physical circle in astral summonings since the
watchtower opening ritual creates an astral one. However, i will
include a physical circle by simply delineating it with flower.
I was advised not to evoke Marbas as a first time as he is a
demon and could pottentially take advantage of my naivety.
Nonetheless, i believe that desperation is ample motivation for
success, I may not get it right the first evocation , but i will
persist till i get his attention.
The reason for calling him would be to cure my inherent asthma
(note: asthma is a disease of the lungs) i have always suffered from
as a child. It has caused me much anguish as a child and still does
as it has thwarted my chances of being a great runner, being great at
sports ( football, basketball voleyball included), but most
importantly my chances of joining the British Army.
Not being an academic and having a major learning disability
there really is not that much left for me to uptake as a career. The
lifestyle of a soldier suits me perfectly; the workout, the training
and all those things that go with it. I can seriously not imagine
myself doing anything else; its a tragic problem as there is only one
life ( in definite terms) and i cant come to terms with being a
failure. Asthma was not something i chose, i was born with it. There
really was nothing i could do apart from endure the hard times and
make it this far. I would appreciate any tips, professional advice,
insights of the spirit. I am quite desperate for help. Wait, let me rephrase that, i am VERY desperate at the moment.

GodBless and i hope all is well,

Alex.