Hey guys,
Been visited on two seperate occasions now by what I get in visuals as a child of variable size; the first time I saw her, she seemed a bit taller, but the second was a visual of her sitting on my computer desk, and in that one she looked to be about four and a half feet, with a frame of maybe a foot wide at the waist...tiny, other words.

Large, dark eyes, but actually very normal looking...thick but not excessive black hair...but the main thing that caught me was an unusually pink Caucasian complexion. Not unrealistically pink, perhaps...but moreso than what I'm used to seeing.

I would have written it off as a ghost or a delusion, except the first time I saw her, it was in response to a request for help when I had something malignant in my bedroom which I felt was beyond my degree of experience to be able to deal with. She got rid of the negative entity in fairly short order, which made me assume that she was at least somewhat powerful, which in turn more or less ruled out the ghost idea in my mind.

Anyone who's been watching me on the God/Goddess forum will know I've been trying to focus a fair amount on Kali recently...but if the above is a guise of Kali, it isn't one I've heard of. The reason why I assume there is some association between the two though is because both times I've seen her, I was asking for help from/contact with Kali and ended up getting her instead. I've wondered if it was maybe a spirit guide...I've heard of one person at least having a kid as a guide before.

I don't get an impression of malevolence at all though...the second time I saw her (sitting on the end of the computer desk) was actually when I was feeling fairly upset, and I felt that there was some expression of concern there.

As wacky as it sounds, the single main individual I've been reminded of by her in terms of appearance was Aphrael, a fictional (I thought, at least ;-)) godform mentioned in two of David Eddings' series of novels. The mental imagery I used to get of her as a character while reading those books was pretty much identical. Of course, a Chaote's response might be that I've somehow ended up evoking her...but if so, it was inadvertent and more or less spontaneous. Also, in getting rid of the other entity I was having problems with, I at least thought she demonstrated a level of power that I wouldn't have thought possible with the CM concept of pop culture godforms, to be honest.

Some of what I've been seeing in the last 18 months has started to cause me to think I'm about ready to be shipped off to the proverbial funny farm. Given that it's nearly all revolved around what I later found out to bear at least an interesting resemblance to imagery I'd found of female godforms, a sarcastic response could be that I simply need to get a girlfriend...except it started while I was still in a relationship. I think maybe the answer is that even during that relationship, I'd previously been Christian, was growing very unhappy after several years of living like an atheist due to disillusionment with that religion more or less entirely, and I think also rather than a girlfriend specifically, actually wanted a female godform...not only purely for the sake of something different to what I'd previously experienced, but also because of the degree of emotional intimacy I'd read being claimed by worshippers of such...it sounded like something desirable.

As a result, I've now apparently got them crawling out of the woodwork in all directions, at least in terms of the visuals I've been getting. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif)