It's been a while sence I last visited. I have no idea what triggered the event but it has had major effects on me. I was sleeping one night about six mounths ago when I suddenly woke up. I was paralyzed. A faint misty gray light came from the corner of my room. It faintly illuminated the corner behind it, but not enough to break the dark apex at the top. It flickered as it descended the wall. It settled on the floor like a piece of dust, just out of sight of direct view. The light dimmed greatly once then suddenly flashed and revealed a deep shadow before me. The light flickered like an old projector, seemingly allowing the figure to move. The silhouette turned to me
“Rise now, to me.” It whispered in an echo that came from everywhere.
A lump rose in my throat. This thing scared me. The power that resonated from the image choked me into hallow gasps. My heart beat slowly and my vision began to blur. I felt as though I were being crushed by this thing. On its command I fell into a deep sleep. I 'woke up' about two weeks ago. It feels like it was yesterday though. I don't remeber anything in between. I've been trying to get my life reordered and figured out. It's a little complicated though. There seems to be someone else as me. I mean it's me, as in my body, but not my thought. This 'other' me is not me at all. They have a different personallity, speach, posture, ect. They seem to be in 'controle'. Whatever I think or want to do doesn't happen unless they want to do it. It's like being locked inside my own head watching me do stuff. Through focus, and luck I have been able to take 'controle' back, though it's fleeting. Any laps in consentration and they win out. Easily too. I have no idea what's going on anymore. I'm personally hoping for crazy at the moment. This is as on top as I have been yet. So I'm gonna try to calm myself and look for anything I can to help myself. Acid, Vigrant, I really hope either of you can help me.
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"Time washes away everything. Joy, agony, everything..." Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicals
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