Concerning Marbas Options

Greetings to the fellow magickians of this group.
My interests and infatuation with the
occult arts began more than a few years ago however, i am planning my
first ritual evocation, specifically of Marbas the Goetic President,
very soon. I will be using Konstantino's method of astral evocation
however i slightly altered it after having watched a video of an
angelic astral evocation.
Concerning tools, i will not be using a wand/sword. For the
triangle, i asked my friend to lend me a wooden triangle about a
suitable size; it can be found on a regular pool table ( its the
triangle that sets up all the balls all neatly). My magick mirror
will be purchased very soon; i am creating it by buying a picture
frame and spraypainting the back of the glass black.My incense will
be frankincence and mur. And as for the circle, in konstantino's book
he doesn't speak of a physical circle in astral summonings since the
watchtower opening ritual creates an astral one. However, i will
include a physical circle by simply delineating it with flower.
I was advised not to evoke Marbas as a first time as he is a
demon and could pottentially take advantage of my naivety.
Nonetheless, i believe that desperation is ample motivation for
success, I may not get it right the first evocation , but i will
persist till i get his attention.
The reason for calling him would be to cure my inherent asthma
(note: asthma is a disease of the lungs) i have always suffered from
as a child. It has caused me much anguish as a child and still does
as it has thwarted my chances of being a great runner, being great at
sports ( football, basketball voleyball included), but most
importantly my chances of joining the British Army.
Not being an academic and having a major learning disability
there really is not that much left for me to uptake as a career. The
lifestyle of a soldier suits me perfectly; the workout, the training
and all those things that go with it. I can seriously not imagine
myself doing anything else; its a tragic problem as there is only one
life ( in definite terms) and i cant come to terms with being a
failure. Asthma was not something i chose, i was born with it. There
really was nothing i could do apart from endure the hard times and
make it this far. I would appreciate any tips, professional advice,
insights of the spirit. I am quite desperate for help. Wait, let me rephrase that, i am VERY desperate at the moment.

GodBless and i hope all is well,

Alex.

Well, you have a really a good reason for evoking Marbas which is always a good start (IMG:style_emoticons/default/bigwink.gif)

I myself suffer with asthma and was just yesterday thinking whether Marbas could be of any help to me, which is interesting as we are both contemplating it at the same time. Although I have never evoked Marbas (yet), of all the accounts of evocation I have read, he has always been a pleasant, helpful and knowledgable spirit (please note pleasant does not mean 'fluffy' lol).

I say do it! but remember to post results!

Well, you have a really a good reason for evoking Marbas which is always a good start (IMG:style_emoticons/default/bigwink.gif)

I myself suffer with asthma and was just yesterday thinking whether Marbas could be of any help to me, which is interesting as we are both contemplating it at the same time. Although I have never evoked Marbas (yet), of all the accounts of evocation I have read, he has always been a pleasant, helpful and knowledgable spirit (please note pleasant does not mean 'fluffy' lol).

I say do it! but remember to post results!

Yeah thanks for this post, thelemite. Its very very hard for me right now. As i am battling depression and i dont think i'll survive this one. You guys have NO idea....

i am looking for someone to talk to as i have noyone. if anyone is kind enough then please , pm me. There is not a word in the english language or a passage shakespeare (or lovecraft) can write that can effectively convey my anguish and pain. mental pain is the worst kind of pain. forget physical pain i'd trade the worst kind of physical pain for this. YES its THAT BAD.
You know, ive always had this illusion ( as ive frequented these forums for like a year now) that all the magickians in this group have super lives and got everything and all these awesome powers. to be honest, im not sure what to believe right now as my mind is in chaos abounding with all types of madness and illusions.