My boss seems to attract nothing but negative karma to herself, and I think I have possibly been infected with her bad vibes.
She was just in a car accident and her car got totaled. I can honestly say that this was not her only car accident this year. On the road, she is constantly paranoid, and she is FULL of road rage. She honks at people a lot, she flips them off, she's just all around rude to other drivers, because they may slow her down when she is in a rush. The day after her accident, she was working with me. She was on the phone for 30 minutes with her friend, BSing, while I was in the back seat. And we almost got hit twice.
The icing on the cake is her neighbors. Now, I know her neighbors are TERRIBLE people. They are. Trust me, there are many witnesses as to their behavior and why it is extremely terrible and they are very, very bad people. I decided to suggest that she should move in with her best friend. The reason as to why is because her friend has a douchebag tenant that she was evicting soon for violating their personal space and being a rude sociopath. I suggested it as a good option, because she is the type to pay her rent on time, and that's all she would need to do to stay on her good side.
"Oh no, that would be too awkward."
So she won't move in. She's managed to convince herself that her neighbors are hexing her (somehow, I don't freaking know) and she's going to use sage in her apartment and get a karma cleanse, not realizing she is an active participant in her life and totally could have made a better decision to not deal with them anymore that was totally rational instead of assuming the worst from her neighbors who probably don't even deal in the occult. I don't understand where she came up with this conclusion, an there's no evidence to support it, really. I know it definitely doesn't hurt, though, but still. She was talking a lot about moving out and has decided not to do so, which baffles me.
How does this relate to me? Well, I perceive things a lot more negatively than before, attract a lot of negative things to me now, and I've been depressed, in physical pain, and feel like crap after dealing with this. People around me have become more negative. Bad things keep happening to me. I have even gotten physically hurt. I feel drained every time I speak to her. I feel as if dealing with this job has attracted negative things into my life merely by associating with her. This did not happen before I was hired. Did she somehow transfer her negativity to me? Did she somehow cling to me, and I've become affected by what she attracts to her as a result of her actions?
Look, I like this person. She's not a bad human being and makes sure I can afford the basics in my life and not struggle. She just makes poor decisions due to poor judgement. This is someone who genuinely cares for me as a human being. But I can't help but wonder that something is going on. What can I do about this, other than quit an otherwise emotionally fulfilling job? Do I use magick, or do I just talk to her?
Thanks, guys.
This post has been edited by VioletCalla: Jun 3 2013, 11:15 PM
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