I have some similar things as well. Im naturally extremely shy, and have alot of other problems which I just cannot confront; such as public speaking (i'd wet myself), being looked at by other people, confidence problems, and I can go on. Well, i've noticed that there is another side to me I like to call rage/anger, with this other side I tend to not feel shy anymore, not feel bad, not feel scared, or anything. This is my psychological other side that I could not exist without.
When I was younger I never thought about how I could use it for my advantage at hard times, but about 3 years ago I was working for some homeless community place and we had to make a public speech; and Im a very anti-social person I piss myself in the presence of just a regular person. Anyhow, I was told to make a long speech I knew NOTHING about (this was also because I was too shy to tell them I didn't know anything about the matter)... Anyhow, I had grown quite nervous at first and at the time I went up the stage my anger was just repleting me, as I thought about all the crap I had to take that day. Well... as hard as it may be to believe, my anger literally took out my fear from the stage, from it I was in sort of a trance (in my mind elsewhere), and I just started talking; I didn't know what I was talking about much, but somehow the words came to use and I didn't make a fool out of myself. I was angrily and BRAVELY telling how I don't know shit about the matter and was literally asking volunteers to help. I made people do my speech for me and got the credit for going up the stage, it was incredible. And that was the time where I noticed how I can manipulate my anger (or other side of me) when I need him/her to aid me in trouble.
Its incredible what things the mind is capable of, it would be foolish to ask: "what can the mind do, what is it capable of?"; the mind can to EVERYTHING as long as the Will is there.
DeathStalker
This post has been edited by DeathStalker: Oct 25 2006, 10:19 PM
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