Hi everyone
i joined the forum today (put an introduction of myself on the coffee shop section) I have been practising the magickal arts (of various flavours) alone for the last 10 years or so: from pagan to Eastern and now I focus on High Magick, but I take all the techniques with me, if you see what I mean.
The situation I find myself in at the moment is this: for the last year or so I have been bullied by a group of people - causing gossip, telling lies about me to others, trying to ruin my reputation, occasionally physical threats, this affected me very badly to the extent that I became very anxious and agoraphobic (I just wanted to be in my own space). Through various rituals it became clear to me that this was a repetition of a pattern from a (very abusive) past. So I have been making efforts to strengthen my own protection and increase my self-acceptance - rather than just avoiding people; as I started living a kind of half life, it has been affecting my personal growth and ability to do the work I am here to do, and also I am pleased to say that I have new opportunities and some big decisions to make and I would like to do it without thinking of those issues.
But I do want to put a halt to the negativity or rather keep it with the perpetrators so that it just doesn't touch me.
I have done my best to resolve the situation over the last year or so, on the physical plane, so I think it is time to act now. What would you all advise? Any experiences/success stories?
One question is do I bind or banish? I have thought about doing a mirror box ritual (i.e. making a familiar and then putting that in a box made of mirrors facing inwards so that their energies remain with them) would I have to do a separate one for each person? can I put circumstances into the box? or even institutions? I would like to resolve the current situation and the initial situation (where the pattern was formed).
Also, i was thinking of doing the ritual on Samhain - would this be a good idea? I will also be doing magick to strengthen myself and also to ready myself to take new opportunities: would I be able to do both this and a banishing/binding?
Sorry for so many questions - I seem to have been spending too much time alone
Lily
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