Meditation Problem Options

Okay, well I recently got the book Modern Magick: Eleven Lessons in the High Magickal Arts by Donald Michael Kraig. Very recently, since I picked it up last night. It tells me to keep a journal of dreams and once the book gets to rituals, those. Last night I hit the jackpot with dreams, usually I don't have any.. but I woke up 4 times with more to add. Before that however, I meditated for a good hour or so. What was really wierd, was how it was so easy to clear my mind. Before I actually got into Magick and its practice I was horrible. There was never a time I could keep my head clear.

Last night, I could dismiss thoughts like i've been doing it forever. While meditating I would get so into it. Then came the time I'd unconciously stop breathing and a flash would appear and startle me. The first time I figured I was just doing something wrong, but then 20 minutes later it happened again. It scared me at first, then just started to tick me off. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/rant.gif) In the past, I've had similar things happen, but that flash was more of a sinister face and I would wake up gasping. Could there be someone/thing around me disrupting me?

Okay, well I recently got the book Modern Magick: Eleven Lessons in the High Magickal Arts by Donald Michael Kraig. Very recently, since I picked it up last night. It tells me to keep a journal of dreams and once the book gets to rituals, those. Last night I hit the jackpot with dreams, usually I don't have any.. but I woke up 4 times with more to add. Before that however, I meditated for a good hour or so. What was really wierd, was how it was so easy to clear my mind. Before I actually got into Magick and its practice I was horrible. There was never a time I could keep my head clear.

Last night, I could dismiss thoughts like i've been doing it forever. While meditating I would get so into it. Then came the time I'd unconciously stop breathing and a flash would appear and startle me. The first time I figured I was just doing something wrong, but then 20 minutes later it happened again. It scared me at first, then just started to tick me off. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/rant.gif) In the past, I've had similar things happen, but that flash was more of a sinister face and I would wake up gasping. Could there be someone/thing around me disrupting me?

I think you should listen to V's advice. I'd also advise you to look at some out of body experiences as well, I think that your energetic body is running into your subconscious shielding and pushing you back into your body. I think you might have been verbally abused and when you enter a trance you try to go half-here half-there, when you're paying attention it feels very strange. Try and discern between meditation and leaving the body, these are good things to look at. With you I'd start with meditation and controlling mood and thought patterns, and then start doing astrial work. If you'd like you can private message me with some questions or concerns.

Good luck,
Dancin' Coyote