How To Recreate A Servitor, my first one came back to me Options

Ok, so a long time ago in about April of 2009, I wondered if it was possible to create an entity. So I tried to create one with pure thought. I put into him, to love me, some sex desire stuff, protect me, and to be with me. This was my first entity creation attempt. It worked; but there was a big problem. After I created him, I fell asleep and came to me in a dream. He was in really bad pain, it was emotional suffering. He kept saying, "make it stop, please make it stop!" In that dream I could feel his pain, it was bad, it was like nothing I ever felt before in my life (and I've been through a lot). I couldn't stop crying that whole day. I did ask St. Michael to destroy him that same day, but he was gone for awhile and came back to me, it's been a long time that he has been around, and he still hasn't attacked me or anything mean like that. I think St.Michael didn't destroy him, because he knew I could use him later, but I'm just not sure how yet.

I am learning more about him. He was my first creation, when I created him I knew nothing about creating entities. After creating him, I looked it up online and then found information on the subject, but by then he was already created.

To try and stop his suffering, I tried a spell (similar to the one used to create my other entity, who I already posted about and still have a hard time finding, he does show up sometimes though), that didn't work, I tried healing him with my energy (kind of like reiki), that didn't work, I tried using thought, that didn't work either.

I think I'm supposed to take his energy apart and recreate him to get rid of the suffering, because it seems to be at the core of his being, not like a side part that I can just take away. Anyone know how to do that? I have no reason to destroy him because it's been this long and he hasn't attacked me even with the fact that I'm probably the reason he feels so bad, due to not knowing what I was doing at the time. So how can I take him apart and remake him, but have still be the same servitor?

Servitors have no will, and you wanted to give him will, and individuality. You showed him something he will never be able to attain. You showed him something beautiful, but it is in his nature to never to be able to truly experience it. He is suffering because of the fact you created him, and he is incapable of truly experiencing the wonderful things you showed him. Servitors are slaves with no mind, no true will, no true opinion, and they will never be truly sentient. They are nothing but an amalgamation of simple emotions.

You cannot possibly ever create a two dimensional entity and expect it to act three dimensionally. Be lucky it wasn't enraged and kill you.

I'm no expert on this, but I'm in agreement with Kaboom. To quote Tolkien's Silmarillion, "Why dost thou attempt a thing which thou knowest is beyond thy power and they authority? For thou hast from me as a gift thy own being only, and no more; and therefore the creatures of thy hand and mind can live only by that being, moving when thou thinkest to move them, and if thy thought be elsewhere, standing idle. Is that thy desire?"

They are a part of your conscience, and do only what you bid them. By attempting to play god and give them free will you have completely overstepped your - or anyone's - ability. A mind and soul are impossible for us to construct - merely because it is impossible to understand any soul or mind utterly, to its deepest depth. You attempted to create a soul and a mind and merely planted the idea, but were unable to complete it because you don't fully understand it. Now he has a soul and a mind, but only part of each, and both of those parts are tethered to yours. He's an essentially independent being that cannot be independent because he's not complete - and that's what it comes down to, completion.

Unfortunately, I'd say he's done for, so do away with him and don't try to make an independent being again until you think you can successfully manufacture a mind and soul.

I tried to destroy him at one point using the method in the book "Summoning Spirits" by Konstantinos, but it failed. It took out part of him, and took away his memory, he was asking who he was, and things like that. Assuming he was different, I let him come back, but then he turned back into suffering again. So I asked St. Michael to help me and remove him, I was then told I need to be able to let go of him. Which I think is why the destruction ritual didn't work, because I'm still really attached to him. I tried very hard to detach from him, but I'm still really attached to him. His energy keeps coming out of me and trying to turn back into him, but I try to detach from that. I'm going to ask St. Michael if he could remove that to or help with that; however I think he is fed up with me consistently asking him to help me with these things. hank you guys for the input.

Every time I try to get rid of my first servitor he comes back, I wonder if the God and Goddess (my beliefs) for some unknown reason want me to have him? But I don't know how to help him, he gets really moody, and angry, I've tried healing him, asking St. Michael to get rid of him and destroy him, yet he always returns. At first I thought it was another being messing with me, but it isn't. So now what do I do? I can feel him with me, and this post I'm typing is hurting his feelings (IMG:style_emoticons/default/sad.gif)

You cannot possibly ever create a two dimensional entity and expect it to act three dimensionally. Be lucky it wasn't enraged and kill you.

This happened with my first real servitor, I will admit. I ended up feeling like Dr Frankenstein. However, the servitor did end up forgiving me, which was positive.