Hi Guys, Just would like a little imput from you. Options

Hello. Last few years Im getting obsessed with committing suicide. Now at the point I know I will. Im 47 year old male with no money, job, family and future. And for the most part I hate the way system is setup, its rigged and a rat race. Everything I try never works and I suspect life is playing joke on me, like its in a program to be that way and nothing I can do. Im tired and I dont feel like fighting because life is fight right....? Im just ready to quit. I didnt write this for anyone to be sorry for me and try for help. Im pretty much sure im done and thats ok. I did DMT trips few times, so I know this reality is matrix anyway. Any adwise how to be fully gone from this plane and not leave my phanthom?

Thanks,
Aquarius

Hi
Hope you are stil around to read this. I wonder if you've ever tried some of this magic and rituals to improve your life? If nothing else would, I would try this

Hello. Last few years Im getting obsessed with committing suicide. Now at the point I know I will. Im 47 year old male with no money, job, family and future. And for the most part I hate the way system is setup, its rigged and a rat race. Everything I try never works and I suspect life is playing joke on me, like its in a program to be that way and nothing I can do. Im tired and I dont feel like fighting because life is fight right....? Im just ready to quit. I didnt write this for anyone to be sorry for me and try for help. Im pretty much sure im done and thats ok. I did DMT trips few times, so I know this reality is matrix anyway. Any adwise how to be fully gone from this plane and not leave my phanthom?

Thanks,
Aquarius

Have you invoked anything you were not ready for?

Hi
Hope you are stil around to read this. I wonder if you've ever tried some of this magic and rituals to improve your life? If nothing else would, I would try this

No, I did not. Im not much of believer of all this. I think for the most part its a placebo and self hypnosis when you do this. I am believer of fate and that everything is already pre programmed and nothing you can do much.

Have you invoked anything you were not ready for?

Don't think so, I have not done any magic or rituals.

Hello. Last few years Im getting obsessed with committing suicide. Now at the point I know I will. Im 47 year old male with no money, job, family and future. And for the most part I hate the way system is setup, its rigged and a rat race. Everything I try never works and I suspect life is playing joke on me, like its in a program to be that way and nothing I can do. Im tired and I dont feel like fighting because life is fight right....? Im just ready to quit. I didnt write this for anyone to be sorry for me and try for help. Im pretty much sure im done and thats ok. I did DMT trips few times, so I know this reality is matrix anyway. Any adwise how to be fully gone from this plane and not leave my phanthom?

Thanks,
Aquarius

It just sounds like you're a monk?
How does doing monk things go for you?