Its been a long time since i had one of these dreams. I mentioned a few posts ago how before Alisa i would have dreams of a women, one i loved with all my heart, and she loved me. Last night, for the first time in years, i had this dream again. It wasn't the same as when i used to dream about her. Before she was always out of reach, love from a distance but a clear connection. This time we were together, holding each other, a few kisses, nothing perverted. But there was such a profound sense of connection, and love. The amazing thing is we never spoke once, we didn't share any words, but were closer then words could ever bring us.
It is never a very sexual dream. In the past we never even made physical contact. For example one dream i used to have i was sitting on the bed, with a few friends, lying back. We felt so much comfort being in each others presence. This time was the first time. We were sitting in a cafe, at Starbucks, on the sofas they have. She reached for my hand to hold it innocently. She didn't rub all over me, or look for her first chance to make a move. She just held my hand, and i could feel everything she felt. Then we kissed, one gentle smooch on the lips, no tung, but it felt so perfect. Then she turned her back to me and lay her head on my lap. Its hard for me to explain how amazing this felt. The actions in the dream were nothing special. But the connection, the comfort, and the power of the moment, all intangible things, where, and always have been spectacular. I just hope one day i get to be with this women in real life.
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